Changing myself instead of others

May 21 aft 1

Had a good chat with LK and she also said I m grieving over food.
She also commented that P was not supportive of Mu. It is true Mu is not leading well but we should help him. It's true he can be sensitive but we can still respond.
P always said she will not bend to others ego. But little did she realised we have to bend to hers.
Mu may not be effective lead but he has possibility as people will want to follow him. Mu lack organisation skill but got some people skill.
While P can do a good organisation but no follower. Got good organisation skill and can attract obedient people but cannot grow.

I would then say there is a difference between a leader and organiser.
I myself is a leader so I always hire organiser.
This time things are crumbling. I m taking charge and smoothing feathers where needed. I don't feel that I m responsible for the crumbling nor the pick up of everything. I m not the leader, teacher is.

I m real glad of the shoulder and hands swings. Something in me loosen.

Suddenly tot of my Neptune cards. They are really true.
Never in my wildest dream that I can finally resolved;
1. Food
2. Validation/Outsider
3. Burden


Neptune (13 may to 2 Jul)
Destiny
Queen of Spades
Through meditation and inner reflection u could achieve some meaningful changes in your life.
Ur deepest dreams, the ones that are a major driving force in ur life, are being uplifted to new levels. Expect some realisations that are profound and life altering.
On the mundane side, many areas of ur life are going better now as u stop trying to change others and make changes in urself that allow you to experience more joy and success.

Ruling
Five of Diamonds
This could represents a long business trip or business interests that are at some distance. Be extra cautious in all communications and contracts under this influence and u may do much of what u dreamed u wanted to do.

Soul
So true. The recent program communication was with teacher at overseas resulting in miscommunication. And Mu taking the first time lead role.

And my deepest dream is Self Mastery. Finally able to know I m responsible for my sadness and overcoming my Outsider card, I now can change my story. And by releasing my Burden card, i can now have energy to pursue my Destiny.