Finally releasing my Burden

May 20 aft
I have a King of Heart card today
King of Heart in Mercury
The highest card in the suit of love, rules through compassion and wisdom. He has the power and knowledge of love and knows how to use it. It gives u the opportunity to have more control over ur feelings and romantic impulses. This will bring u more success in all ur personal rships.

Soul
Mmm, same msg on Osho - fighting card.
By covering our wounds with armour, we are preventing them from being healed. By lashing out at others we keep ourselves from getting the love and nourishment we need. Time to stop fighting. There is so much love available to u if u just let it in. Start forgiving urself. U r worth it.

Soul
Just now msg with C. When I said M is my deep friend whom I have defended with against teacher. She was bit defensive and said M is also her good friend and that's why she informed new teacher of M and K yesterday. Actually I was puzzled why she brought them up when the new ad hoc teacher has never seen them and will never know since she won't be coming. When she msg me, I just replied with a smile.
What's more important was Mu to be intro to teacher.
Speaking of the 'devil', Mu just called to voice his frustration of being slighted again. He said we exclude him from teacher meeting. I said I was called and I always asked for him but was informed he was not around. Infact I was bit miffed with him for always missing our teacher meeting. I said I apologise for not asserting that he be in meeting. But I also said he also need to take responsibility by asserting himself also. He should have gone to teacher and said to be included.

Father, I just released myself from Burden this morning. Why I should be concerned about people leaving Isha. Anyway, chill it. Main thing, the three of us must hold on. People will come and go. I have made my peace with C and P. I know C and P are true friends. I cannot say I m but we all knows we each has a role to play and volunteering is for something bigger than us. We been thru thick and thin.

Suddenly a tot occurred. It cannot be just the lead. It also has to do with the person. Mmm, I openly admit I haven't yet see blessing of volunteering. But when I do. I m not bothered about the result. Mmm, truly?? Maybe not but I more affected by people.
Anyway. Whatever will be will be. I am not responsible for everything.

Mmm, suddenly I see Mu's issue. This is not the first time he says he felt slighted, not recognised as a lead.

Mmm, my issue was validation from people. His issue is also validation. My case is worry of loss of validation. His is not seeking validation as a leader.

Be the Change
Andrew Harvey
Letting go of insecurities and self doubt so that we can be available and open to what is needed in the moment is a quality that we can bring not only to our meditation