Slowly but surely accepting my leadership role

May 12 aft
Great Sathsang despite everything. Both P and her sister didn't make it and neither did C. They didn't even inform me. M nowadays doesn't come for Sathsang.
I spoke to V and he agrees with my assessment that Sathsang Guide has to firstly attend Sathsang. He also nominated J.

Then the new volunteers were also late for set up.
My normal routine was to do aum chanting. But today I was feeling disturbed and so I went for Shoonya. It was so lovely and my natural joy return.

At first slight hiccup on the opening of file via vlc or Itune. But I got it sorted myself. Things progress. Sharing was great. The self creation meditation was so lovely. As Pa said the energy was happy happy.
I shared that we need volunteers to grow. I need replacement. I also shared that I m not senior or etc, everyone is of equal standing. So once a task is given, they need to discuss with each other directly. I open up the channel.
The potluck gathering was made with such joyful ambience. A few of them approaches me and shared the importance of Sathsang.
Even the white lady, W has started to open up. I m glad. No more division of seniority. That was more P style.

Father, thank you for showing me the Faith card and Self Mastery period. I rise to the occasion. I gather more volunteers.