Lifetime challenge - Seven of Hearts

May 1
Just did my practices.
Surya kriya was good. Breathing was lovely. Shakti was amazing, Kapala Bhakti was effortless, the breathing happens by itself. Finally I got the momentum after nearly 3 years of doing Shakti.
Shambavi was good too. In the end I was singing love songs again.

Just saw Z's response. I said ok and immediately deleted the whatsapp. No longer want to entangle. I just want to keep peace. I love him and I don't want to keep him away.

1. Issue
Inner Guide
In following ur inner guide, u will feel more whole, integrated, as if u r moving outwards from the center of ur being. If u go with it, this beam of light will carry u exactly where u need to go.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Going with the flow


May 1 aft
Just back from meet up with A. We went thru the 7thunders cards. And I saw my life time challenge is Seven if Heart. This time I read that I faced betrayal in rship cos I don't take the time to assess the partner properly. Something similar was mentioned in my Natal chart but I ignored it. Will check again.
Yea, in a way Z too betrayed me or rather I didn't see him properly and disillusioned myself. Will check this.
Seven is extreme and need balance. When I m with my partner, I give my love without reservation. I even give money without reservation.
To check more.

Seven of Hearts in Venus
An unfaithful friend or lover may be the cause of a considerable emotional disappointment.

U may also have gotten involved in some sort of humanitarian work or counseling work where u give a lot to others, and this also may challenge u at times.

U may have set urself up for these downfalls by placing unreasonable demands upon those u love and care for.

The lesson is to:
See others as they truly are.
Review ur expectation of others
Face ur personal fears that have chained u to automatic reactions that are less than what u ultimately desire for urself.
Develop a spiritual and unattached love for those in ur life.
The major lesson is not to be naive in ur friendships.
U may find that u r giving out ur trust and friendships before knowing just who u r giving it go. Some may not be as they appear and do not deserve the trust u bestowing upon them.

Affirmation
I m learning how to experience unconditional love for others, and in the process, I set myself  free.

I create high spiritual and unattached love among those closest to me. I learn to release attachment and fears.

Soul
That's it. Similar message to validation issue.
Father, I am afraid of rship cos I m afraid of being hurt. I am also afraid of losing the validation.
Is that why I hold on to Z. Until now I still can't get over him. I know I love him but there is still an attachment. He still affect me

Mmm, learn to release attachment. Learn to release fear.
Father, guide me.