Three of Diamonds - why am I affected?

May 23
Woke up 4.30 am. Asanas was good, getting more nimble. I don't feel strenuous as the stretches was quite effortless but I doze off during Shavasana. Breathing was good. Shakti was different. I now does slow 5242 and ending breathing session. I was trying to get the jerky sound. Not sure if I m successful but will try again. As teacher said the sound comes in jerks.

Father, I m slightly affected by Three of Diamonds people. Why both F and K can't just take things one at a time. Why do they need variety?
I know I have first karma card of Three of Diamonds; but why am I affected?
I tot of telling F that I can't see any talent in her current hobby. But I stopped myself as I recalled I have a tendency to shoot down others dreams; I break the bubble. I will hurt people. Same as K, now aiming for guiding meditation and etc. Why are they looking to excel? Why they try to stand out when they can't even hold their own ground.

Father, what it is about me that is affected? I know the other side of Eight of Diamonds tells another story.

Be the Change
Steve Demos
Meditation is my foundation. If u strip away the dirt, u get the roots. Mediation was an entry gate for me, and then it was a re-enforcer.  It sets the stage that permits me to demonstrate the value system.

Soul
True for me too.

On the Three of Diamonds. When I read Queen of Diamonds about changeability, I couldn't relate.
A tot came. I like spiritual but I resist so much. Isn't that uncertainty in values.

Osho today
Aloneness.
When there is no "significant other" in our lives we can either be lonely or enjoy the freedom that solitude brings. When we find no support among others for our deeply felt truths, we can either feel isolated and bitter, or celebrate the fact that our vision is strong enough to survive the powerful human need for the approval of family, friends or colleagues.
If u r facing such situation now, be aware of how u r choosing to view ur aloneness and take responsibility for the choice u made.
Ultimately each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions or guide.

Soul
Yes. I m feeling alone. No partner and no support from Isha.