Overcoming my North node in 11th house...thanks to my mirror, Z

May 26 aft 1
Now reading Astrology for Soul to go into specific of 11th house.

Father, I recalled I prayed that I be given an answer to address my need for validation and alas answers given.

North node in 11th house and Aquarius
The Achilles heel Aquarius north node people need to be aware of their need for others approval ("My survival depends on others giving me approval") and thinking that if they have others' approval their life is on the right track. But it is a bottomless pit: they can never get enough approval to feel satisfied or to feel free to be themselves. Actually, for them the approval of others is a false barometer. They must risk disapproval and be true to their own unorthodox ideas in order to develop the deeper and more satisfying feeling of self-approval.

Soul
Alas I m getting clear. Also tot that's why Z and I can't be.

Astrology for Soul
North node in 11th house
Another important factor is carefully choosing whom to work with. They do better with like-minded people who are not controlling and are open to new ways of doing things. Aquarius north nodes are kids at heart - they don't want any "adult" telling them what to do! They need to work with people who are generous, who respect them, and who values their ideas. When they involve others, their creative process becomes energised and the successes generated by the shared energy are far greater.

Soul
Yea. That's why I shy off working with Parental mode people - very controlling. I don't feel free. That's is also why I can't teach; I can lead Isha. I need to have my own creative expression.

North node in 11th house
The sooner Aquarius north node begin playing their part to further the idealistic causes they are drawn to support, the sooner they will feel more of a sense of wholeness. Their action might take the firm of group efforts to protect environment or etc, or they might donate monies to humanitarian causes. They might begin their own project, using their creative talents (writing, painting, music, photography). 
Unless these folks are "creating", dissatisfaction undermines other areas of their life. Their creativity can be released through business, an art form, the furthering of humanitarian causes or acceleration of their spiritual growth. When they are re-creating themselves through spiritual discipline or initiating projects in the tangible world, it is in their best interest to be conscious of what they want to create and to use their passion to actively pursue it.

Soul
Yea, my aloneness, writing and practices is in Top 5.

North node in 11th house
They are happiest being involved in projects that allow them to express this in their own way. They love to contribute, but they need to be free to be innovative and creative. They don't want to follow someone else's directions - it limits them and lower their "frequency". If they try to slow down their high-frequency, intense energy, it makes them crazy. When they ignore their own creative impulses and do what they think they should do, their energy plummets.

Soul
Exactly. I m on the right track.