Love dispel inner judgement

Apr 30
Woke up from a dream at alarm. Hesitate for a moment on whether to do hata. Ignored it and took a shower. Knew that I was disturbed over the service tax matter and the judgment by S over our services and also worried about how my regional boss view this. Guess I was worry about work validation.

Did one cycle of surya kriya and followed by asana. My body is getting quite nimble. Change of diets helps.
My elbow stiffness has reduced much vs yesterday. I think the release of my shadow brother energy does the job
Breathing was lovely. Shakti was fine, I was totally absorbed in Kapala Bhakti.
Shambavi was great too. I had tots of the Parental mode people in my life, P, teacher, N and S. When the tots of them judging me came, I just said Love me and the judging tots evaporated. Another judging parental tot come in, I repeat Love me and it disappear. So I said quite a few times of Love me. After I release my

 I knew once I released my inner Parental mode, they will be gone.
Tot of S, being my first karma card for Ruling. I m now on my Destiny card and the karma be gone. I no longer owe her anymore.

Towards I was singing in the end; love me tender, love me sweet, love me  evermore. Dancing and laughing.

Then I wanted to end and infact chanted the closing invocation but a silence took over me. And after nearly 15 minutes, I suddenly chant closing invocation. A sweet contentment stays.

When I was driving, I tot of all the songs that I normally sing during practices is all about love.
1. Love is higher than mountain; love is thicker than water. You are my angel dream, devil's daughter.

2. Send u all my love in a letter. Wrapped in sunshine and everything good.

Music is not in my life. I don't buy any records. I only listen to song in the radio.
But when I got to an intense point in meditation, I will start to sing.
The first time it happened was during Sathsang's silence moment and I suddenly sang guru pooja.
At first I try to stop it but it just came out.
Then when I went for Samyama, I start to sing tunes as I don't know any songs. I dance while I sing.
The last 2 years, I only sang intermittently. But this last one month after Surya kriya and also change of diet, I have been singing consistently.

All these times I m singing I love others. For the first time I sang I love myself. I finally released my shadow brother within.

Just received a call that S has quit her job. I m not surprised cos I just tot this morning my karma with her is over.

Father, thank U for everything.
Now left teacher and N. yea, focus on Sadhguru, they r just the blocks that I have to go through. Mmm, that's how Z focus on his goal.

Six of Spades
A smoothing out of affairs in the realm of work and health. Much needed peace into ur life. If during this time, u take some time to tune into ur deepest tots and feelings, u may become aware of special msg.

Soul
Yes.
Focus back on promoting Isha. C is the right PR and P is the organiser. Each of us leader on our own right.
As for teacher and N, I commit to Sadhguru and they r someone I need to go through to learn my lesson in validation. Amen.