To assert myself for my own needs..instead of feeling resentful to others for not meeting my need..

May 26 aft
Just finished my Surya kriya practices. Looks like I was lopsided in my mountain postures. I was leaning on my left body.
Also found out I cut short some asanas in Cat stretch. No wonder I m normally faster.

J said my resistance is because I was afraid I might 'fly' to the other side. I told him unlike him and teacher, M; Sadhguru is not my life. He is just my guru. It took me four years to accept him. I haven't accept my role in his foundation yet.  

North node in Taurus
They know when their boundaries are being trespassed - they feel frustrated, fatigued, uncomfortable and unsettled. Others don't sense the resentment because the native covers it up.

These people are learning that in this lifetime their destiny is to risk asserting their own needs in their relationships and to "train" the other person to satisfy them. When these people owns their needs and take responsibility for integrating them into their rships, it works. They get back the energy they need from their partner, which opens the door for intimacy to be created.

Soul
I didn't try with Z. I was afraid of the ending if I assert, especially I know that Z is not in love with me.  I forgive myself with Z. He was meant to be my mirror only.

 Cosmic Love
Z is my 8th house
Once u have received their gift and reclaimed ur ability to merge with another in ways that revitalise and empower u, u can continue building with then - if ur values are compatible - or go out on ur own. Either way u have gained an awareness of ur ability to do what u truly value in the world and have a new level of energy, self confidence and determination.

Soul
Yea; new beginning for me. He was the first. He broke through my strong fort and i learned to set my boundary with others. Father, I can now read the rship without any sadness. I forgiven myself with Z. Amen.


Cosmic Love
Me in Z's 1st house
This person (me) can permanently strengthen Z's life  by encouraging his individuality and enchanting his sense of independence. As Z accept my gift and allow me to help him recognise he can do things on his own. Z's demonstration motivates me to actively began exploring my independence and pursuing my own talents. In this way, we empower each other to evolve into the full expression of our unique potential.

Soul
We both meet so we can grow. Amen. I forgiven myself with Z.

Father, thank u. Alas I m freed of Z.