Queen of Spades in Neptune

May 18 aft
Tot of my Neptune period

Neptune (13 may to 2 Jul)
Destiny
Queen of Spades
Through meditation and inner reflection u could achieve some meaningful changes in your life.
Ur deepest dreams, the ones that are a major driving force in ur life, are being uplifted to new levels. Expect some realisations that are profound and life altering.
On the mundane side, many areas of ur life are going better now as u stop trying to change others and make changes in urself that allow you to experience more joy and success.

Ruling
Five of Diamonds
This could represents a long business trip or business interests that are at some distance

Soul
Father, my dream is Self Mastery. My life time challenge was Seven of Hearts.
I can't change others. I changed my expectation. Z won't rise to the occasion to be a real diamond.
I can continue to be sad over him. I have let him have much power over me. I no longer want Z's presence as a validation of my valuation. I m valuable with or without Z.


Today card - Uranus (unexpected event)
The Writer's Card
U will have an opportunity to either get the benefits of heightened creativity of mind or suffer the liability of more stress and indecision.

Soul
I choose the former. I m responsible for my sadness. My sadness is because I make Z absence as a loss. In reality I m not losing a real diamond. I need not regret and create false hopes.  I will change my perception.
I will focus on the new me, the blessed me. Today I feel love for myself.