Something released in me...now can swim breast stroke after nearly 15 years

May 25
Just back from swim. Did a few laps of breast stroke. Alas, breast stroke is now affirmed in me. Something in me finally released. Amen.

I also know why I was disturbed the last few days. Isha thing again coming back. I know my Top 5 is not Isha foundation. My Top 5 is just my Isha practices. Sadhguru is one my masters, he is not my life. I have accepted him as a guru. When I see teacher, M watching his video with adoration. I knew I m not.

With that I knew I need to inform the core team that I fulfilled the promise made to hold the fort a couple of months ago. I m not keen to be overall lead Isha. I think we should set different leads for different group. The rest can act as support members.

Father, my top 5 is
1. Alone time
2. Family time
3. Writing time
4. Practices
5. Partner

Isha foundation is not my Top 5.

Only response from C but not the other two. Guess they waiting for a date. But it's ok. I need to focus on my Top 5.

I m not going to be silent and let Isha runs my life. P may like work but I don't. Frankly I didn't feel any satisfaction of completing the program or event. I m just thankful that it is over. I m not her. I may be a good lead but I m not a lead of other's people dream. I have my own dream to lead.

Thanks to the swim that clears my head. From now on, live life according to myself, not according to validation.

Yea, I just realised that I don't want to open my private mail. Only does it during working days cos its all volunteering work. Something that I m not really keen to do.