Slowly but surely facing my Saturn in Aries

May 13 eve
Silent Shoonya; felt like a great sleep. So rested that I had slight difficulty going into Samyama.
Yea, my silence is so peaceful.

Today received SOS call from P on Sh. Looks like she too faced hardship under teacher. I think teacher knows Sh is closed to M. I told P I m tired. She said she understand. She was quite stress as Sh said no longer want to be Treasurer. P starts to 'froth' and this time I m able to manage her. Her 'frothing' is just out of fear and she project it out, attacking others instead. Mmm, suddenly it occur to me. P is afraid to lose and that's why didn't step into arena. I don't think it is becos she is afraid 'me' when I have never dealt with the accounts before.

I was fine with a change of Treasurer. I immediately tot of the Auditor. Mmm, can also ask Y, a financial analyst at stock exchange. Got 2 candidates.

Have to deal with teacher and N. The old me would have reacted. The new me, knowing the lens that teacher and N wore for each other, can approach them better. Instead of feeling envious, admired them for their strong friendship.

Mahatria Ra
Struggle, suffering, challenges, testing periods, tough times - in fact all these are part of the vocabulary of a man who is seeing only the lower being pushed without recognising how the higher delights in the process.
U r saying a caterpillar is being pushed.
I am saying the butterfly being born.
Every time man is pushed, God delights .., for it is thorough this push that man is created.

Soul
So timely.
Today I got Ten of Spades; continuous work load from both office and Isha. I tot of my Queen of Spades in Neptune that just begin yesterday. Not easy.

Queen of Spades in 52 days Neptune.
Through meditation and inner reflection u could achieve some meaningful changes in your life.
Expect some realisations that are profound and life altering.
On the mundane side, many areas of ur life are going better now as u stop trying to change others and make changes in urself that allow you to experience more joy and success.

Soul
Amen.