Explosive Shambavi

May 20
Slept 8.30 pm yesterday and woke up feeling refreshed at 4.30 am

I had food poisoning on Saturday night and hardly slept at all. I wanted to go back early as I was feeling really sick. But teacher said we all need to stay back. After I did mother session, I felt a recovery and alas can volunteer in kitchen. Then I had a quick shower and changed into my white clothes for initiation. I felt recovered after that. Now with a good sleep, back to normal. I m glad I didn't take the antibodi for food poisoning. I had my fair shares of stomach ailments and this one takes the cakes as the pain was loads and carry on for a long time. Thanks to Sadhguru I recovered from body poisoning without antibody.

Did my Surya kriya and had some tots of yesterday inner engineering program. So, lost a bit of counting but body geometries maintained.
Breathing was good. Shakti was better now that we had the one to one correction. I did good on the 5242 breathing while ensuring my mudra and shoulders are kept straight and relaxed at elbow. Then on the end breathing, ensuring back are straight and counting is slower. And I only took 3 breaks.

Shambavi was amazing. I ensured good preparatory steps. Suka kriya and aum chanting was fine. The finale I was singing and suddenly I was dancing and moments later my arms start to straighten out and was swinging at maximum, stretching my shoulders. It keeps on swinging as if someone is holding my fingers. I want to stop as it was getting to strenuous but it can't stop. Then I start to cry for help but it still keep on swinging furiously. After a long moments, it stop.

As I m writing this I feel my shoulders are very light. There is no tension. A tot came, all my burdens and control shaken off. There is a lightness never encountered before.

Suddenly tot of my Breakthrough resolution card. Alas perhaps the burden card is off. When my hands was swinging furiously, a tot came that I m to give to others.
Now writing this I tot that I had always tot responsibility is suffering. Never it occur to me responsibility is love.