Meditation helps me to have alternative view on Z

May 5
There are some tots of Z that comes in intermittently. I just shrugged and remember it is over. Don't want to think non closure is my issue, could be his.

Be the Change
Forgiveness
Letting go of the past, of the story and the details, of the ignorance and the selfishness, we open to the present, to who we are now.
Sitting in meditation, we know we cannot change the past but we can change our attitude towards it.

Soul
Yea. Forgive myself for the ending. It is not within my control.
Mmm, suddenly a tot occurred. I tot my mom gives me away cos I was unlovable. In reality, she did so cos I m very lovable that even neighbours love me.

Perhaps I can think that I m so lovable that Z can't talk to me. May be he is afraid that we hook up again and it will upset his plan of marriage with children. Yea. Just see it another way. It will only let me be released.

Be the Change
Rather than trying to eliminate negativity, we cultivate the opposite, seeing and knowing pain, we bring kindness.