Facing verbal abuse from another - projection

Oct 14 morn
Father, La really on a roll. Granted I truly don't want to talk to her to find out why she left halfway. But she is too much. Since she knew I won't pick her calls she write me long messages. She was really attacking. I was able to ignore all cos I know what I did or did not do. But the one that caught me was her saying that my website is rubbish.
Firstly I didn't told her about my website and secondly I didn't ask her to read. Fear came that she will tell others about my website.

Never mind.

Just forwarded the msg to L and she said just observe. Something big is dissolving. True.

Father, it suddenly occur to me La is similar to zany few ex-bosses and even S. The heavy parental mode. The old me would have reacted. I m surprised. Now I truly matters. No longer lets these energy draining people in my life. I attract good and loving kindness into my life.

Today my card, King of Diamonds.
He is successful and has a strong sense of values which have made him the success he is. So when this card appears u could take on these qualities yourself.

Soul
Amen.

From FB
Osho
Buddha said "don't worry about it. I must have done something wrong to u in the past. Now the account is closed. And I m not going to react. Otherwise again and again, unfinished business. Now my account with you is closed."
In a life when a videha, one who has understood he is not a body comes into the world just to finish accounts. His whole life consist of finishing accounts, million of lives, many relationships, commitments - everything has to be closed.

Soul
I used to lament why I met so many challenges in life. I knew now on lack of parameters on relationships.

1. Issue
Guidance
The truth of ur deepest being is trying to show u where to go right now, and when this card appears it means u can trust the inner guidance u r being given. The indications are clear: in following the inner guide u will feel more whole, more integrated, as if u are moving outwards from the very center of ur being. If u go with it, this beam of light will carry you exactly where u need to go.

Soul
Yea. My inner guide is asking me to drop the local leadership in Isha.
Father, never expect this. Tot I was ok but I was not. Maybe with this I am able to let go of the past too; the whole package.

2. Internal influence
Moment to moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet. The only right person is one who lives moment to moment.
Stay alert to what is happening in the here and now. Life is a great ocean in which u can play if u drop all judgements, ur preferences and the attachment to the details of ur long term plans.
Be available to what comes ur way, as it comes. And don't worry if u stumble or fall; just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh and carry on.

Soul
Amen.


External influence
Projection
Ur mind is at the back of the whole thing, and the mind is the projector. Because u look at the other person, because the other is the screen. Each is projecting an image they have constructed in their minds, covering the real face of the persons we are looking at. All of us can get caught up in projecting movies of our own making onto situations and people around us.

Soul
I recalled what went thru my tots when I fell in love with Z. Looking back I was actually the person I want to love. Amen.

Now L attacking me, her view of me is of herself. Mmm I noticed parental mode have bad image of me. They project themselves on me.

Just as I project a needy person requiring love on Z, he too project a 'player' on me. We both not looking at each other truly. Since I couldn't leave him, I projected that he couldn't leave me too; which is totally untrue as he did an immediate replacement and even got himself engaged. If I had married another person, I be sensitive enough not to show up in my ex face but he did just that and expect me to let go as if past didn't happen. Since he did immediate replacement; he tot I can do that too.

Father, I also projected on my inner partner. Since I m outwardly strong I tot inner is too. But it's not, its need protecting; it needs to be needed. It needs to be mattered.

4. What is needed?
Flowering

Soul
Mmm, not sure where this is coming from.

5. Resolution
Aloneness
Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive.  It is a presence, overflowing presence. U r so full of presence that u can fill the whole universe with ur presence and there is no need for anybody.