Validation issue arise again

Oct 15 eve
Had a good afternoon nap.
Start to feel bit regretful on me exit from all chats.
No msg from L, wonder what she thinks. Maybe she can pick up the lead role something she avoided for years.
Tot of my loss of validation. But I truly can't handle it.
I truly got issue in validation resulting in difficulty of letting go. Now can see my Two of Diamonds.

Father, now I know why the Mars Seven of Diamonds.

The Divided Self
Each belief badly needed exploring, slowly, professionally  and thoroughly, until change occurred and was sustained.

Soul
Takes effort and time.
Just need to remember I matters to myself and not I matters to others.

The Divided Self
The successful self by Dorothy Rowe
A successful self is not engaged in a constant battle to avoid the threat of annihilation ...., (it) feels valuable, self-accepting and self-confident .... has developed flexible and creative ways of elaborating the sense of existence .... has made the less-real reality by developing the skill necessary to live in that reality ..... uses the preferred reality not so much as a refuge but as a resource for creativity ...., has created a life story without the gaps and inconsistencies which inhibit and cripple, and which goes forward in courage and hope.