When I am not happy on my own...means I am attaching happiness to others

Oct 9 eve
Went for my evening walk. The trees looked lovely. I was singing in my mind. Not many tots. The heavy rain came when I finished my walk, perfect timing. I thank Father for granting me the lovely walk. Miss the trees. Glad to be back.
All in all about 3 weeks since I did my weekday walks.


Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
Whatsoever we know up to now was in the nature of others. Sometimes when beauty was seen, it was in someone else. Sometimes, when love was received, it was from someone else.  Happiness was received, unhappiness was received - it was always from the other. Someone else, someone else, always the other, only that other was important.

Now for the first time, the other is removed and the self starts showering over the self. It is like our own springs had burst open, it is as though one had found one's own source, and the self had begun showering over the self.

Soul
Amen.

Adhyatma Upanishad
When neither the gaining of certain things determines whether u are happy nor the losing of certain thing makes u happy; when happiness has nothing to do with gain or loss; when happiness has become one's own, with no requirement of outside stimulation - neither meeting nor not-meeting, they both become meaningless, then it is vairagya, meaning non-attachment.

Soul
A tall order.
At least now I m on losing doesn't mean death.

Adhyatma Upanishad
The question is not the presence or absence of the enjoyable things, the question is of the existence of desire. And it is very interesting to note that where there are no objects of enjoyment, the desire is felt even more intensely; it is not felt so intensely where the objects of enjoyment are present. In the non availability, the desire is more acute.
When everything is present but there is no desire to indulge - non attachment.
When no desires arises within; when enjoyable objects may be present but no desires arises, either in favour or against; when the mind simply does not run this way or that and u do not swing in any direction; when u remain where u are, as if there is nothing - the object may be there outside but its reflection does not create any attraction nor repulsion - then is ultimate state in non attachment.

Soul
My only experience comes from food. When I opt to let go of meat and eat only seafood. I m not tempted to eat meat; except for my brother in law cooking.
To me I have stated very good food and no longer crave for good food. Besides standard are so high that most cooks can't fulfil my level of taste; no point spoiling myself by eating.

But recently with now on strict vegetarian due to Samyama, I find myself thinking of meat..which never happens..guess thats me resenting and wants to take back the upper hand against restrictions.


Adhyatma Upanishad
As long as ur soul is imprisoned somewhere or other, u r not settled in ur self. Then ur life is not present where it should be. It should be within urself - but it is not there, it is somewhere else.

The definition of non attachment is that ur soul is within u, settled in urself; nothing pulls u and nothing creates any sort of ripples or waves in u. Hence non attachment is the door to bliss.