I matter to myself

Oct 14 eve
Just finished my evening Shoonya and Samyama. Such contentment.
I recalled me pulling out last year but came back early this year to help out as both C and K can't do and P was too tired. I tot I leave after May IE. Then followed up with the dance event in Sept and later GP in Oct. Now all commitment fulfilled and its time to leave while everything is good.

The Science of Mind
The Spirit can give us only what we can take; It imparts of Itself only as we partake of Its nature. It can only tell us what we can understand. The Infinite knowingness becomes our wisdom only in such degree as we embody Its Intelligence. It has been said that we can know God only in so far as we can become God.

Love points the way and Law makes it possible.

Soul
Just had a nice family supper. Just chatting and laughing with family.

The Science of Mind
The one who wishes to demonstrate some particular good must become conscious of this particular good, if he wishes to experience it. Therefore he must make his mind receptive to it and he must do this consciously.

Soul
I truly matters. I used to believe that I don't matters to others because I was not lovable. Now I begin to wonder. Instead of lamenting I don't matter to others; why don't I first make myself matter to myself.

This letting go of local leadership in Isha involved letting go of being a guide. It is inter related. Others may think I m selfish; I m over reacting; I m weird, I m not willing or etc. main thing is I m doing to mask myself matter. Instead of lamenting others doesn't acknowledged me; why don't I acknowledged myself first.