North node in Taurus - relax and rest

Oct 16 aft 1
Got this from raginguniverse blogspot

North node in taurus

Relax. Take a big deep breath. Exhale. Smell the grass. Soak in the evening sun. Relax. Take another full breath. Relax. Watch the sun slowly set. Get ready for a fine dinner. Relax. Breathe in and out.

Relax.....
Relax.....
Relax......

The easy chair. The NN in Taurus is scheduled for a rest this lifetime. She's invited to park herself in a comfortable chair, rooted to the spot while the turbulent world swirls around her. She feels no need to leap up, fill herself with tension and anxiety, and join in the unrest, unless she wants to, of course. She can linger in the moment as long as she desires, undisturbed, content, and at peace.

The world of the senses. The NN in Taurus was born to fully indulge in and enjoy the experience of the five human senses. After years of distracting pain she is enchanted with these feelings offered to her without conditions. She's like a newborn when the freedom from torment finally arrives and she can abandon herself to these easy sensations without restraint, guilt, or fear that they will suddenly be taken away. She can grasp and hold pleasure. Possess it to the fullest.

Soul

Thats so me.

Now that I am working on 3 days week, I got basically 4 rest days.
I just relaxed, have coffee and do my writing in cafe in the afternoon.
In the evening, just walk in the park, feeling the love and care from nature.
I am finally here.

Thankful that Z couldn't change his mind on children; otherwise I be stuck and diverted from my path. Thank Father for helping me here.

Teacher was not supportive of me letting go of sathsang guide. I did tell  her that being a guide means being the local lead and I truly don't want to lead. Just remember she has Eight of Spades and Ten of Diamonds, a true workaholic. We are the opposite. Anyway, in order to placate her and also to ensure I make decision in the right frame of mind, I said that I will decide after Samyama and hope she will support me in whatever decision I made.

But looking at these, my mind is made up..and I am on the correct path.

Raging universe blogspot
North node in Taurus
Nowism. No other human is more capable of living in the moment than the NN Taurus. She has no desire to leave the reality she's in. It's exactly right. It contains everything she wants. Even if the imagination wanders off to foreign dimensions, her body is content to be where it is, and awaits her mind's return with eagerness. Dinner is ahead, perhaps a hot bath, a slick shiny magazine, some jazzy love songs, or some delicious conversation on the Internet. So many possibilities, so much to do.

Soul

Exactly how I feel doing Samyama. It is so me. Just be there doing nothing.

Contentment, fulfillment, and peace. The NN Taurean has finally reached the plateau, the beautiful rich peaceful meadow she sensed was ahead. She can build her life now without panic and fear that the foundation will drop out from under her. She is entirely self supporting and has the leisure time to do what she wants at her own pace. She can contemplate the world immediately around her trusting in its generosity and relaxing in its safety. She is on rock solid ground entirely at home. Comfortable, satisfied, complete.

Soul
Exactly. I told Z I can't live like him constantly with money issue.
I have wrongly projected my goodness to him; he was a player and he consciously attract to intense critical financial situation by spending beyond his means.