Possibility of Freedom by Ernest Holmes

Oct 12
Woke up 7 am to do practices.
Practice my guru pooja, correcting my previous mistakes.
Did one cycle Surya kriya, feet alignment was great.
Breathing was nice.
Shakti was great. I was in total focus. Able to waive off any tots.
Shambavi was good too. In the end just contentment.
Very little tots. And when past tot comes in I told myself stop clinging.

Went for a swim. In the first and half cycle, I can feel the fear. I asked for help.
The third cycle, I told myself just enjoy, no pressure. Need not stop at the end. I swam all the way and in the end I was laugh once more. I m back.
This continue for another 3 cycle. Amen.

The trees are so lovely. So alive. So green.

When I was driving back tot of past comes; this time I said Stop clinging.
Past tots come on average once an hour.

Got this from FB
Letting go gives us freedom
Freedom is the only condition for happiness.
If in our heart, we still cling on to anything - anger, anxiety or possessions; we cannot be free.

Soul
I have done all that I could. I have unravel all that is needed. I have dissolved Seven of Hearts, Seven of Clubs and know about my Two of Diamonds.
Now just need to dissolve Two of Diamonds - letting go.

Been thinking of reading Ernest Holmes - The Science of Minds a few weeks ago. Read this back in Aug 2007, a year before me initiation to Isha.
 Now I think best time. I want to be freed of my past. I have given it enough time and space. Nothing else to learn except for the letting go phase - which is going with the flow. Everything is gone except my tots of them. So when I allows tots of the past, I m clinging on to it. Father, guide me through this.

The Science of Mind - Ernest Holmes
Man by thinking, can bring into his experience whatsoever he desires - if he thinks correctly, and becomes a living embodiment of his tots. This is not done by holding tots but by knowing the Truth.

The conscious mind is superior to the subjective and may consciously use it. Great as subsconcious is, its tendency is set in motion by the conscious tot, and in this possibility lies the path to freedom.
The karmic law is not kismet. It is not fate but cause and effect. It is taskmaster to the unwise; a servant to the wise. The road to freedom lies, not through mysteries or occult performances, but through the intelligent use of Nature's forces and laws. The law of mind is a natural law in the spiritual world.

Soul
I got hope.

The Science of Mind - Ernest Holmes
The law of our life reacts to our spiritual or material concepts and builds and re-builds according to our beliefs and faith.

Soul
My belief that I was unlovable is gone. My belief that I was not good enough is gone. I no longer believe that I need a miracle for love. I believed that it is possible.
I have dissolved my Seven of Hearts and Seven of Clubs and now need to dissolve my Two of Diamonds karma card in Ruling.

The Science of Mind - Ernest Holmes
God is always God. No matter what our emotional storm or what our objective situation, may be, there is always something hidden in the inner being that has never been violated. We may stumble, but always there is the Eternal Voice, forever whispering within our ear, that thing which causes eternal quest, that thing that forever sings and sings.

Soul
Yes. I experienced it many times. Even when I was truly down, crying loads; the joy always remain; the songs continues in my mind. Amen.

Father, when I read this back in 2007; I don't have the spiritual aspect as support. Now that I have experienced and connect daily to my Source; coupled with Samyama practices I will handle this Two of Diamonds.