We don't listen, we too busy defending ourselves against anything that shakes our beliefs

Oct 2

This morning woke up at 4.20 am upon alarm but I don't want to. Normally today is rest day. So I opt to sleep back for another hour, skip hata yoga.
Can't really sleep deep in that one hour.
Woke up at 5.20 am.
Did my guru pooja and proceed to Breathing. Didn't do Surya kriya. Breathing is nice, feeling my own depth. Shakti was good too. So was Shambavi. Towards the end I was singing in my mind.  Love the preparatory steps in Shambavi plus Suka kriya. Little tots as my attention was inner.
Truly different doing with my inner partner. Now I m no longer alone in my practice.

Tot of S. Then waive it off as I won't get into other people's mind. She is one person that is beyond me. She truly need counsellor help.
To think that a few years ago, I used to accept her judgement of me that I m not 'good' person. Actually its her. She has faced so much complaints and yet brush it off by saying others at fault. Father, I finally grow up. My values is strengthening.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
Whatever u think, it has no value. If something is not heard rightly, thinking about it is futile. So, the first step, the seers have said, is shravana, listening.
The mind chooses what is favourable to it and rejects what is against it. It is a difficult task: this is the mind that is to be dropped and this is also the mind that is ur enemy and ur controller. 
Just the smallest apprehension - that this thing does not appeal to u in the light of ur beliefs - and ur mind immediately shuts its doors. It says, 'Do not hear anymore', 'Ignore that', or 'go on opposing from within.
We are constantly engaged in defending ourself as if some battle were going on.

Soul
Glad S messaged me yesterday. Suddenly I can see her whole scheme as controller. She thinks that she is the designated judge, out to give verdict on others. Finally released of her too. Amen.
She is a Four.
Father, I used to lament I am Ace and hence shaken by everyone. But this Ace allows me to be open, shaken and grow. Now is my stabilising period.