It is me I need to immerse in...merging with my own self and not others

Oct 19 eve 1
I had immersed myself on others. I tried to merge with others
It is me that I need to immerse in.
I have been avoiding it. That's why I m said to be ironic. I avoid my inner because I want outer. But outer is not for me. It is time after 5 years to go inner. To immerse in myself.

Keep my faith that I will dispel my attachment. Since it happen to food, to swimming breast stroke, anything can happen.

My insecurity was always there. It just need relationships to flash it out due to my South node on Scorpio. No wonder my destiny for North node is ease in myself.

Feel better after watching Sadhguru video. Reaffirmed my spiritual path. Father, now my path is just me. Relationship with inner me also needs compromise. But it will always be True.
Just remember this 52 days of Seven and Three won't be easy.

Mystics musings by Sadhguru
Q: much of my anxiety I experience comes through my relationships. Isn't it reasonable to expect understanding from other people?

Sadhguru: You need only to understand the limitations and capabilities of these people and do what u can; only then will u have the power to move the situations the way u want it to go. If you are waiting for people to understand u and act, it is only a pipe dream; it's never going to happen.

The closer the relationship is, the more effort u should make to understand them. If you leave it to their understanding, it will become accidental. If they are very magnanimous, things will happen well for u; if not, the relationship will break up.

Soul
Yea. To practice discernment; to set parameters and to know others too. To keep to my values and expect others to keep theirs.

Mystics musings by Sadhguru
Good and bad are always to ur ego requirements.