I can feel and connect with my Inner self, my true partner

Oct 1
Woke up feeling bit tired but also excited at meeting my Inner Self.
I have been searching out, alas finally searching in.

Did all my practices with connection to my inner self. There were little tots as my attention was on the connection with my inner self. Did one cycle of Surya kriya followed by asanas, it was good. Lovely breathing feeling my inner body. Shakti was a different experience with my inner body. Kapala Bhakti was awesome. Even the initial breathing and finale breathing was awesome. I can feel my inner self. Towards the end I laugh loads.
Shambavi was great from the start. Surya kriya so peaceful feeling my inner body. Aum chanting; different aum comes out. I think my Inner Self trying to find its voice. Towards the end, both of us just sitting contently together. Such a peaceful and fulfilled feeling. Much greater than the moment after sex. I feel I found my true life companion.

What an amazing experience, there is truly an inner Self within me. It has a voice. It wants to be known. It wants to come out. It used to be a small seed but now it's grown. My role is to help it to be grown as much as me or even bigger.

Such irony. I used to dismissed my meditation experience. I tot it was not me. Just the high energy creating some expression. So, it has nothing to do with me and I didn't do anything to create the expression. Somehow I tot it comes from outside. That's why even in Samyama, there were expression but I dismissed it. Not only that I was bit pissed as I felt I was excluded; there were no me.

All the while I lamented, yea I got joyful expression but nothing changed in me. I had no transformation. My expectation were not met.
I still face outer issue, still face my mind and there is still a deep longing to be a partner. All that has not dissolved except for food and sleep.

Today it occurred to me that my expectation of transformation is possible. But because I keep on looking outward I didn't realise that the answer was for me to connect within with my Inner Self.

All the expression was my inner Self and my role is firstly to create the platform for the inner self to grow and then to get my outer self to reach out and connect to it. It had been said inner Self waits for us.

Sadhguru
Love is a longing to include someone as part of urself. It is a possibility to become more than what u r, by inclusion.

Soul
Amen. I found my Inner Self, my true love.
This may be the Result of Ace of Hearts.
My inner Self is still not fully grown and have not found its true expression; so its up to me to find and connect with my Inner Self; the next step in its growth. Inner self can only grow as much as I want to. It can only grow whenever I connect with it.