Time to let go of leadership in local Isha

Oct 8 morn
This week Osho tarot card

1. Issue
Change
Life repeats itself mindlessly unless u become mindful. It will go on repeating like a wheel.

Soul
Yes, been repeating this leadership in Isha for the past few years. Previously break out due to stress or resentment or etc. Now its because I don't feel fulfilled. I don't have the values of volunteering, only for practices.
If don't let go now, it will continue. No more. This is the last stop.
My only fear is the validation issue that will come later.

2. Internal influence
Success
The greatest wisdom to keep in mind with all the phenomenon in the parade of ur life, whether they be valley or peaks, is that this too shall pass.

Soul
Program was success. I know I have made my presence. But more importantly I now want to make me happy.
Validation of others no longer sustains me.
Now I only need to validate myself, do what truly makes me happy.

3. External influence.
Lovers
Sex is the seed, love is the flower, compassion is the fragrance.

Soul
Finally I can feel compassion for him.
(Oct 10 - I can now do the group message without a tightness feeling).

4. What is needed for resolution
Awareness
Mind can never be intelligent. Only no mind is intelligent. Only no mind is original and radical. The veil of illusion that has been keeping u from perceiving reality as it is, is starting to burn away. The fire is not the heated fire of passion but the cool flame of awareness. As it burns the veil, the face of a very delicate childlike buddha  becomes visible.

Soul
Yeah, this letting go of leadership comes unexpectedly. It just popped out.
I didn't plan it. I no longer resist. But I know I m not fulfilled, not happy.
And with GP, they all gone to next level; no more reason to hold on. I need not be responsible anymore. And I got Sr who wants to be guide.
Everything falling in place. This Sathsang be my last.
And coincidentally I m leaving for Sathsang next month. The first time I did Sathsang was on letting go of my career. And now on letting go of leadership in Isha.
Father, I now can see that it was I who hold on. No one prevented me from letting go. True they may want me to stay but they not stopping me from going.
So I was the one who stopped myself.

5. Resolution
The understanding
U r out of jail, out of the cage; u can open ur wings and the whole sky is yours. All the stars, the moon and the sun belongs to u. Just drop clinging to the cage, move out of the cage and the whole sky is yours. Open ur wings and fly across the sun like an eagle.

The dawn of new understanding - that the cage has always been open and the sky always there for us to explore- can make us feel a little shaky at first. Its fine and natural to be shaky, but don't let it overshadow the opportunity to experience the lightheartedness and adventure on offer, right there along with shakiness.
Spread ur wings and be free.

Soul
Amen.