It is normal to have different values

Oct 17

Woke up around 5 plus am. Samyama meditation really relaxed the mind loads that I slept like a babe and hence body enough rest.
Anyway, since this is holiday I slept back and woke up at 7.16 am. Thank God the past is finally over. Thank God Z didn't choose me; otherwise I can't be on my easy path. Others on Spades will judge me but then we have different values. I m not a doer, never been and won't be.

Practise my guru pooja. Did 5 cycles of Surya kriya, foot alignment not great cos having tots. But little of past.
Shakti was good. Focused on Kapala Bhakti but last breathing still not good.
Shambavi was good. In the end just quietness and I sang love songs. Feels rested.

I recalled some attacking tots on La. I let it run for awhile then a tot came; path of least resistance - avoid drama queens.  Besides her outburst is on her alone and at least I now got valid excuse to avoid. Also I m no longer the guide. Yea.

Got this from FB.
Letting go gives us freedom. Freedom is the only condition for happiness. If, in our heart, we cling on to anything, we cannot be free.

Was updating my blog on Oct 10 and got this.
Debbie Ford
To stop sabotaging ourselves, we begin by forgiving ourselves for being part of the human race, with flaws and imperfections, misbehavings, and sometimes making wrong choices. If u can forgive urself internally and have compassion and openheartedness toward that sweet, vulnerable child who lives inside u, then u will create those kind of magical moments in the outer word.
The outer world will reflect that self-love and u won't want to sabotage urself. U will be careful who u hang around, what u say u r going to do, because u become precious to urself.

Soul
Yes I am precious. I now practice discernment. Not everyone can appreciate my joy and love.
So, won't judge myself or let others judge me for avoiding La.
For avoiding leadership in Isha.
Just have to remember that we got loads of Spades...and our values are different.
I no longer ask them why they think its valuable....and whereas I don't think so...
It is their value, not mine...
No point asking others values and miscolor mine.
Father, slowly but surely I m finding my values of just relaxing, letting things be, floating aimlessly is fine.
Thats my Taurus in North Node....
and the one that judge me and subconsciously go into intense activities is my South Node in Scorpio...
No more.....
Guess thats was the attraction to Z...he has Moon in Scorpio...a pity he is a new North Node Aquarius.....which is actually my North Node in 1st house..