Upanishad - Knowing that you are the perpetual bliss soul

Sept 30 eve
Just did Shoonya. Nice. Followed by Samyama. Nice. Nowadays I can stay fully awake during Samyama. It was lovely watching breathe and tots.
Towards the end, I close eyes and focus within. I felt my depth. Then back straightened, head pulled backward and breathe exchange between lungs and outside. Suddenly I cried from deep within. Felt a great release and also a joining.
Father, I feel I m getting to know my inner self, feeling it. Feeling safe. Feel I got someone now with me.

Sadhguru
Yoga means union. To be in a state of yoga means to be complete within yourself.

Upanishad
Knowing that you are the perpetually bliss soul, always rejoice in this bliss within and without your very soul.

Soul
Truly glad on this reminder. I m going to rejoice my bliss within.
I m so thankful for the tool and space to be in.

Soul
Did another round of message to C. This time instead of chaser, I told her that we get it copied in ashram since she found it difficult. But I said I got to ask teacher's approval. And this time I asked for response. She reverted with a reply that she will do it before next Sathsang. The old me would have replied. But the new me not bothered. Hope she keep her promise cos she can let go last minute. Anyway, this time no longer think negatively. Just doing my part.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
If knowledge does not bring relaxedness, understand well that the knowledge is false.
The fruit of knowledge is relaxedness. If the person with knowledge looks tense, not relaxed, then know that the knowledge must have come from scripture, not through his own experience. He may have attained to knowledge by listening to others, but it is not through his own knowing. In such case, the knowledge may well be in the intellect, but it has not yet entered the being.

Soul
I m generally clear on this. I can't say what is not true for me. I can't quote scripture nor Sadhguru's msg unless I agreed and lived in it.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
The fruit of knowledge is relaxedness, so that there remains no effort at all within oneself. There remain no effort of any kind, one becomes effortless. Whatsoever happens is right - a state of suchness prevails, relaxedness happens. There is no effort to achieve anything, no fear of losing anything. No fear that grips u that something may go wrong, no tension that u may miss, u may fall down, u may go astray - this is called uparati, relaxedness.

Soul
In my journey in Isha. I m not bothered by what they prescribed, mandalas, rings or Rudrash or vegetarian food.  I even have my own sabbatical day for practices. 
To me, I m not aiming to get anything. I just do my practices cos it is a good tool and it helped me.
Despite my lack of Ernesty in compliance, I am very receptive towards Sadhguru's energy. Despite my resistance, programs just happens to me. Me not trying to get, somehow got it.
Teacher always said I have nullify whatever Sadhguru said. But I m quite diligent on my practices. I do it whenever I need to.
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