Doing silent surka kriya

Nov 15

Father, today I woke up at 7 am on alarm. Body was not so tired and so I started invocation and guru pooja. Then I did cat stretch. When I want to proceed to suria, I felt such resistance, unhappiness set in.

So, I went back to sleep at 7.16 am and put alarm at 8.15 am. But when it rang, I switched of alarm and doze again. Then I woke up at 8.55 am with a smile. I felt happy. I then realised it has been quite awhile that I wake up with a smile. I know I normally laugh before sleeping but waking up nope.
I knew I had tots of Z as I was sleeping in the night gown I normally wore when I spend the night with him. I recalled that I am always happy waking up with him.

When I split with him, and at the same time let go of my career and leadership, I felt I got nothing left. I tot I got nothing to look forward. Alas, I got my yoga for me to.


I did my shakti and shambavi. I learned to do a silent surka kriya, just breathing normally using my body. I went in deep and was seeing violet flame and I know I am on the right track. I sat up for quite a longwhile. Did my plough back and it was effortless. I knew it was a good practice now that I got my surka kriya right.

For years, I couldn't be bothered and just do my style of surka kriya which 'pushes' breathe. Alas, the right method came on its own. Amen. I have gone deeper with Shakti and now alas deeper with Shambavi too. Next month I be back in Ashram for hata yoga refresher.

I did have some tots of Z. But now I know he doesn't need me. He is healed and besides he is now in Saturn period dealing with his ex-wife Queen of Club. I will check with him on Nov 26, trial date.