I am feeling pissed

Nov 19 Mornin

The day didn't go well. I was angry at FC who didn't bring her mobile and cause us to scramble. When she is on leave, she seems to delegate responsibilities to me instead of her staff. Then an incident with C.

Father, I am angry at C. I send her a msg to take charge of sathsang. In return, she send a msg to everyone claiming that she doesn't know what to follow up and I hadn't give her any guides. 
I was angry as I felt it was below the belt. She could at least reply to my sms first before issuing group mail.
At first I wanted to be nasty but then I calmed myself down cos there are many people inside the mail. So I replied that it is not Sathsang Guide's responsibilities but somehow SG has to be in charge, which is not the norm. I also told her that I don't have the contacts.

Then after she received my mail, she then reply my msg. I think she knew I m not happy. Father, I always feel her below the belt. Anyway, I don't feel like replying. Don't feel like being nice when I don't want to.

(Nov 23 - yea...I don't really trust people)

Then, I received a forwarded email from teacher that exclude my name from the list. I m sure it was intentional as I wasn't in the lead during last IE. Of course, ego was dented. Then I remembered that being excluded from leadership in Isha is what I wanted. So, just appreciate that.  Aiyah, my Mars period. Just ignore. I think I m sexually deprived so got irritated.

Two of Clubs
Means conversation, communication, sharing ideas and cooperation. This is also known as the card of fear and arguing.

Soul
Yea. Today I m pissed.