It is more difficult to jump back on the spiritual path, after a detour

Oct 29
Father, woke up at 4.25 am. Body was fine but mind was lazy. I decided not to do hata and to sleep back. But body was awake and I couldn't sleep back immediately. Then I tot of my dad. It was work for him to walk on his own and so he took to wheelchair and is now dependent on it. It is additional work to all and hence we felt bit resentful cos he can actually walk but don't want to. Anyway, I didn't want to follow his example. I got hata and it is work but good for me. So, I wake up and do my asanas. It wasn't great but was ok. The plough back was bit stiff.
Shakti was fine and shambavi was joyful. Then the finale ploughback was good. I ended the session in less than 2 hours.

Yday I read Mystic Musing and Sadhguru said about meditators who let their life energies in many directions, not focusing on one. I tot that was me but I ignored it cos I am not ready to hear it. And now I am starting Letter 7 and the same msg again.

Seventh Letter
As for what was sown on rocky ground, this is he who hears the msg and immediately receive it with joy; yet he has no root in himself, but endures for awhile and when tribulation or persecutions come on account of the message, immediately he falls away. As for what was sown among thorns, this is he who hears the msg but the cares of the world and the delight in riches choke the msg and it bears no fruit. As for what was sown on good soil, this is he who hears and receives the msg and understands it, he indeed bears fruit and yields, in one case a hundredfold, in another sixty, and another thirty fold.


Soul
I guess I am the one who heard but still interested in the world. My life energies is scattered, part of it is on Z, the other part on new career and hence yoga becomes the balancing part. I had earlier said my 2 job takes me from yoga but now that I have one job, I am still not doing. I am being petulant. Since I didn't get Z nor glam in writing, I am sulking and I just want to hide away and my modus of recovering is always sleeping.

I am now looking at my laziness and ignoring it.

Seventh Letter
The higher the frequencies of vibration of consciousness, the more beautiful, harmonious, joyous and fulfilled are the lives of those who resonate within those frequencies. The lower the frequencies, the more harsh, bitter, acrid and miserable are the lives of those who resonate to such frequencies.
The higher the frequency of vibration of consciousness, the more spiritually loving and beautiful are the tots, the creative imagination, the ideals and beauty of colour and life forms, for they are rising closer and closer to the dimension of UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS where the frequencies have become so heightened as to level out and enter into powerful equilibrium - the ALL POWER of UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS - the Source of All Being - LOVE

To you, the outer conditions may appear to be those in which the body resides but the truth is, it is the consciousness which dwells within, experiences and responds to the outer conditions. The body is but a vehicle making the human consciousness visible to others and the condition of the vehicle itself is a manifestation of the level of spiritual/mental/emotional consciousness which inhabits it.


Soul
No wonder said shambavi gives us wellbeing. But advanced is another level

Seventh Letter
U be like a fly caught in a spider's web and the ensuing battle to extricate tots from the lower frequencies of consciousness vibration can be exhausting and painful.
At such times, constant meditation and prayer, a plea for help, strength and guidance in achieving the 'right emotional attitudes' are the only means by which a spiritual traveller can find his way back from the entrapping lowered energy fields to a state of harmony with the heavenly consciousness frequencies of vibration.

Soul
True. Just read on and realised that I had deviated and its time to get back on the wagon. It is more difficult to get back second time then it was to be on track first time.
Again, it is my choice.