There is hope to heal my RA

Nov 25 afternoon

Just finished my facial, it was one of the most peaceful period and I was there for nearly 3 hours. I just feel my fear, my need for approval, suddenly everything coming to place. I am accepting myself.

I suddenly see the "cancer" horoscope in me, the emotional me. All my truth is finally out. I have always wondered about the suppression card and tot it doesn't really apply to me as I am a direct person and I always expressed my feelings, that's the Taurus in me. Finally Cancer is out. Now I knew there is hope to heal my over-reactive immune system in my body. I will be conscious and need not let my fears of people be absorbed into my body.

Saturn
Father complexes - don't like to wait. U can be impatient, frustrated, annoyed when u don't get what u want and when u want it, which is to say often.
You are wilful and want to rule over others. You need to pay ur dues and deal with issues of cruelty, power and insensitivity.

First, u must gain mastery of ur self, then u can realistically think about becoming an inventive, take charge leader. Once u have learned to successfully deal with ur anger and aggression, u will have faith to do ur thing.

Self respect and self expression may be limited due father complex. U have learned thru school of hard knocks n now u can learn from the school of gentle caress. You can gain power and a big payoff by understanding negative conditions are neither permanent nor pervasive.

Parts of u r thoughtful, calm and level headed. U have some natural emotional control.
To get more power do more work wit ur dream.

Soul
Now I understand my turmoil when I quit new company, I felt like a failure, and worried about my staff"s reaction, worried about my bosses. The same dilemma I faced when I quit Isha leadership. No wonder it was termed as a burden to me. I did it for people, I didn't do it be because I want. When the going got tough and I had difficulty dropping it, I become resentful. In the end, I broke down and quit both new company and Isha leadership.

Nov 25 afternoon (hope to heal my RA)
Just finished my facial, it was one of the most peaceful period and I was there for nearly 3 hours. I just feel my fear, my need for approval, suddenly everything coming to place. I am accepting myself. I suddenly see the "cancer" horoscope in me, the emotional me. All my truth is finally out. I wondered about the suppression card and tot it doesn't really apply to me as I am a direct person and I always expressed my feelings, that's the Taurus in me. Finally Cancer is out. Now I knew there is hope to heal my over-reactive immune system in my body. I will be conscious and need not let my fears of people be absorbed into my body.


Saturn
Father complexes - don't like to wait. U can be impatient, frustrated, annoyed when u don't get what u want and when u want it, which is to say often.
You are wilful and want to rule over others. You need to pay ur dues and deal with issues of cruelty, power and insensitivity.

First, u must gain mastery of ur self, then u can realistically think about becoming an inventive, take charge leader. Once u have learned to successfully deal with ur anger and aggression, u will have faith to do ur thing.

Self respect and self expression may be limited due father complex. U have learned thru school of hard knocks n now u can learn from the school of gentle caress
You can gain power and a big payoff by understanding negative conditions are neither permanent nor pervasive.

Parts of u r thoughtful, calm and level headed. U have some natural emotional control.
To get more power do more work wit ur dream.

Soul
Now I understand my turmoil when I quit new company, I felt like a failure, and worried about my staff"s reaction, worried about my bosses. The same dilemma I faced when I quit Isha leadership. No wonder it was termed as a burden to me. I did it for people, I didn't do it be because I want. When the going got tough and I had difficulty dropping it, I become resentful. In the end, I broke down and quit both new company and Isha leadership.


Uranus
Confront bullies, resist being dominated. Develop ur own strength. Curb ur temper and any social/antisocial tendencies.

Radical and conservative forces conflict within you. Work to resolve the conflict between ur duty and ur need for freedom.

Soul
That's explained my dilemma.

Embrace life - Irwin.
When we confront our strangeness, we are less likely to project it on others. When we embrace our own lack of wholeness, our own complexities, we are less likely to be oppressors, even passively.

Soul
Yea. Finally saw the root in me.

Radical and conservative forces conflict within you. Work to resolve the conflict between ur duty and ur need for freedom.

Soul
That's explained my dilemma.

Embrace life - Irwin.
When we confront our strangeness, we are less likely to project it on others. When we embrace our own lack of wholeness, our own complexities, we are less likely to be oppressors, even passively.

Soul
Yea. Finally saw the root in me.