Opening up my blog - overcoming my fear

Nov 17

Father, I woke up at 7.16 am to do my practices.
As I was doing my breathing meditation, I asked for guidance on my Cosmic lesson, Z.

When I was doing Shakti, suddenly a tot occurred to me. Use my blog as the platform for my writings. I can then just post my writings whenever I write and then only does edit on those articles that I compiled into books. Then I don't have to wait till it being edited and I also don't have to pay unnecessarily. Really hope I can find an editor that does this for free.....H is doing it for free, but it takes  her 2 to 3 months to revert on an article.

I now have a secure career, my main purpose is to share.

I recalled a lady said my stories will have meaning for people who knew me. They will know since my daily journal is in my blog. I created a website because I don't want to open up my blog. But there is lack of "hits" in joyong website. I recalled Sadhguru said only few people will search for truth or do sadhanas when they are in 'heaven'. Most people will on search when they are in 'hell', suffering.

My purpose of sharing via my blog sufferingisblessing is to tell people suffering is just a signpost for us to change direction towards our happiness.

By doing this, I am finally opening up my blog, I am releasing my fear of being known, I am overcoming my fear of feeling unsafe. I am SAFE. I will now learn from Z. He is so fearful of rship and I am so fearful of life. I don't know when he will feel safe but I will learn from him.

Father, this is the real finale on my cosmic lesson of Seven of Spades. I am SAFE. And perhaps alas I found the key to heal myself from RA.

I also did tot of sending him my blog. Finally opening up to him. But I didn't. I think my lesson is learned, just let him go.

Of course when I slept this late afternoon, I dreamed I missed him. Just let it pass. I will focus on releasing my fear of life.

Just focus on my writing. My English is fine and I now had a tots - my stories - my Learnings.