Natal Chart now 95% - a great masquerade

Nov 25
Father, I woke up at 6.45 am n went for morning walk in the park. I just focus on watching my breathe n there were little tots, a peaceful walk.

On Z, I am now sure that I can let go. I am quite sad that I m not as confident as I tot. I now know why I am affected whenever I perceived that others are not approving of me. I started my inner journey because I don't want to be affected emotionally by others. I wanted to stealth myself against others. I wanted self-mastery.



Suddenly tot of reading my Natal Chart.

Pluto card in my natal chart
You are capable of maintaining a great masquerade. In lieu of struggling to control others, work to control yourself. Instead of stealthing yourself against others, strive to plummet the depths of your own soul.

You are wilful n a rebel. You are capable of about as much personal change as u decide. Rather than reacting or responding to circumstance, try initiating change.

You could achieve great wealth. You have a talent for transforming yourself and society. It a good idea for u to further ur own stealth. Learn to relate to people in a big way. You can do something distinguished and prominent for the great masses of people. You can help the disadvantages.

Soul
I recalled I couldn't relate to this. Now I finally agreed with it.
I am affected by people because I care for their approval. Now I know why I faced Dilemma in opening my website and blog.

Neptune
Learn to communicate ur ideas to others professionally. To become more than a daydreamer, learn to do whatever it takes to act, the instant u have a creative idea.

Somewhat consciously and somewhat unconsciously, u will be influenced by and personally able to utilise supernatural forces. We're talking seeking truth and self mastery. Put an end to the insignificant side of ur life. Develop a mystical comprehension of destiny
Learn reverse paranoia. Imagine that everyone is out to help u and make ur life better. Loosen oppression.

To fulfill ur destiny, u need to develop ur pyschic and intuitive skills. Just as importantly, u need to learn to see urself and other people and situations as they are, not as u really wish them to be.

Soul
Father, I have not been active on my ideas. I was caught in my dilemma of risking approval. I admitted I now can see myself with clarity. I now know what started my search, the pain of being affected by people. I will let this period of knowing my fears and my need for approval. I used to judged people for such issues and now I realised its my own projection.

Uranus
Confront bullies, resist being dominated. Develop ur own strength. Curb ur temper and any social/antisocial tendencies.

Radical and conservative forces conflict within you. Work to resolve the conflict between ur duty and ur need for freedom.

(Nov 28 - yeap, there is 2 sides of me)