Opening up my blog

Nov 18 aft
Father, today I did my walk in the park. My high definition eye sight is back. All the grasses and trees are so lovely. I walk quite effortlessly for 3 round, body is fine too.
I just written to my newly found editor that I won't be sending any new article yet. I just want to write and upload into my blog. Once I have selected a compilation of stories, then I ask for edit.
But I was also thinking perhaps I can invest in an English course as what I lacked was grammar and verbal rather than written english.
I finally found my breakthru. I just open up my blog. I need not see it as bad or good or how others will judge me. Now I realised what the Internal influence card - Morality means. It is for me to overcome my self-judgement.

Morality
Awareness cannot do anything that is bad. Anything that comes out of it is simply beautiful, simply right, without any effort and practice.

The Queen of Clouds lurks in the minds of all of us who have been brought up with rigid ideas of good and bad, sinful and virtuous, acceptable and unacceptable, moral and immoral.
It important that all these judgements of the mind are just products of our conditioning. And whether our judgement are applied to ourselves or to others, they keep us from experiencing the beauty and godliness that lies within.
Only when we break through the cage of our conditioning and reach the truth of our own hearts can we begin to see life as it really is.

Soul
Alas I break through my conditioning. I decided to open up my blog and I also shared with Z that I have a private blog. After all my turmoil and dilemma, it is not difficult.

And today I got Morality under today Osho readings.

Also my "What is needed for resolution?"
New Vision.
The figure on this card is being born anew, emerging from his earthbound roots and growing wings to fly into the unbounded.

Resolution
Consciousness
When u choose this card, it means that there is crystal clarity available right now, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies in the core of ur being. There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding u have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself. Accept this great gift, and share it.


Soul
I finally got a New Vision and it started when I saw Z's selfishness is the mirror of my self centredness. Then I knew my self centredness arise because of my high level of self protection due to me feeling unsafe in life.
And I am now meeting my fear face on.
Amen for letting me tune into Osho cards to guide me.