Inner journey is full of self-humbling realisation

Nov 6

Woke up at 4.30 am. There were some hesitation but I told myself I got nothing now. No more Z and no more career, just focus on my yoga.

Did my asanas, quite ok as body is more nimble, laugh a bit during lie down posture, love for Z overflow, able to do a proper one leg sitting asanas without pain.
There were quite a lot of pleasurable tots of Z. Some I hold on for a bit and let go. After it got too much I remind myself what about the pain. So, no going back.

My high definition eye sight is back. The trees and grass is now lively and the colour is so vibrant.

Eight Letter
Modern people are conditioned to instant service, instant light, instant heat, drink, food, clothes and etc and therefore are not attracted to a TRUTH which involves self-sacrifice, hard work and total dedication to the goal. Besides which, many of these teachers are making a good deal of money out of their activities and they must present a 'Truth' that will sell.

If ur modern teachers speak of a path of attainment to the highest dimensions by means of the transference of personal mental illumination, it will still be necessary to undergo the inner intense self-examination and purification of the bonding-rejection of "magnetic emotions".

Soul
That's what I believed too. I believed that one of the main cause of my receptiveness to Energy transmitted by Sadhguru was because of my own inner journey that started from Year 1997. My self-cleansing, opening all my doors, went thru many Masters from A Cloud of Unknowing, A Course in Miracles, Krishnamurti, John Scott Peck, Carl Jung, Wayne Dyer, Meister Ekhart and many other masters. I also did Asia Work programme, checked out Natal Chart, Human Metrics personal profile.

Eight Letter
If u r truly on the upward path to the highest spiritual dimensions, ur road will be characterised by moments of bright clear-sighted self-inspection and self-realisation, followed frequenty by self-loathing. This dark and painful feeling is the magnetic emotion in reverse.

Soul
Yea. Tell me about it. I did undergo a period of depression. Others asked me to snap out of it. I didn't, I went thru it. I found a book Depression is suppressed feeling and found my way out in the end by expressing my sadness.


Eight Letter
Where before, the ego clung to its essential vision of itself as being the greatest and even greater than others, it now begin to glimpse the agonising fact that perhaps it is not only slightly - but very imperfect. Any person reaching to this spiritual level of development will find they are now travelling the road to true humility.

Soul
Yea true. I tot I was happy go lucky and others tot so too. In reality I am a sad person. I tot I am a fearless person but in reality I am fearful. I tot I was secure but in reality I was insecure.
But once I got pass the period, I become real.
I now affirm that I am Safe

Eight Letter
No one should expect people to be wholly changed by words of advice or times of inspiration. Growth can only take place very gradually - one insight at a time.
A true spiritual insight will imbue a person's mind with an altogether new point of view which will enable him to begin to approach certain related circumstances in life differently. This insight must direct the person's actions until it has been absorbed completely into the consciousness for eternity and becomes part of the soul evolution.

Remember u r not on earth to 'please God' as ur church may tell u. U r on earth to 'express' 'God' and to make ever closer and closer contact with Universal Consciousness until u become free of the magnetic-emotional bondage.