Acceptance of the past

Sept 18 eve
Saw in FB, "5 heartfelt to do when he doesn't love u back".
I saw it and it no longer affects me. Somehow I have arrived. They not loving me doesn't mean they don't care for me. I now know both Z and Y do care for me. We are just not meant to be romantic partner in life. Alas I can go with the flow.

Mmm, the sannidhi is 150k rupee and not 120k rupee that I tot would be. But it is fine, Sadhguru is coming.


Sept 19
Woke up 5 am upon alarm. Didn't jump out of bed. Just snooze for awhile as it is nice and cool time to sleep. Woke up 5.16 am and finished practices 8.33 am.

My left shoulder bit painful. Seems to be constant. Knees pain has reduced.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was okay. Didn't cry in hero posture, just sing and dance.
Try to do Surya Kriya, did one mountain pose with both feet on the ground but shoulder couldn't stretch to lie down. So decided to let go of Surya kriya. Don't want to strain my left shoulder. I think due to right elbow pain, most pressures on left hand causing left shoulder pain and middle finger swelling and wrist swelling.
Breathing was lovely.
Shakti was only okay but towards the end singing still.
Shambavi was good. Singing at the end.