Osho tarot - Thunderbolt really true

Sept 29 morn

Last week Osho Tarot, materialised.

Whats needed for resolution?
Guilt
This moment!...this herenow...is forgotten when you start thinking in terms of achieving something. When the achieving mind arises, you lose contact with the paradise you are in. This is one of the most liberating approaches: it liberates you right now! Forget all about sin and forget all about saintliness; both are stupid. Both together have destroyed all the joys of humanity. The sinner is feeling guilty, hence his joy is lost. How can you enjoy life if you are continuously feeling guilty?

Soul
Wish I am truly a giver, not to ask S about the balance money. Wish I am truly a giver, just keep on letting my mone to be lost. Wish I need not faced conflict.
But most of all wish I need not feel guilty for wanting to express myself..Wish I will stop suppressing myself

5. Resolution
Thunderbolt

The card shows a tower being burned, destroyed, blown apart. A man and a woman are leaping from it not because they want to, but because they have no choice. In the background is a transparent, meditating figure representing the witnessing consciousness. 

You might be feeling pretty shaky right now, as if the earth is rocking beneath your feet. Your sense of security is being challenged, and the natural tendency is to try to hold on to whatever you can. But this inner earthquake is both necessary and tremendously important - if you allow it, you will emerge from the wreckage stronger and more available for new experiences. 

After the fire, the earth is replenished; after the storm the air is clear. Try to watch the destruction with detachment, almost as if it were happening to somebody else. Say yes to the process by meeting it halfway.


Soul
I don't have to hurt S and my nephew but alas I must be authentic. By suppressing myself just because i don't want to face conflict, just because I don't want them to be hurt, just because I don't want to lose the validation...
I don't want to feel guilty for being myself.
Now I know the suppression of myself in personal relationship is the one causing me RA pain.
Now take a professional stand on all personal conflicts.
Amen.
What a thunderbolt. Took the jump and both turns out well.