Neptune in Scorpio and 6th house

Sept 30
Woke up at 3.55 am from a dream. Body is good but bed so inviting. Just give myself the pleasure of snoozing. Did a 15 min snooze and wake up.

Did Bhuta Shuddi, with the correct breathing. Angamardhana was good and fast. I did little rest. I think definitely finished in 35 min. Surya kriya was good but second mountain pose had some difficulty in having both feet to ground.
Did a short breathing.
Shakti was good and Shambavi too. Spend longer at the end of Shambavi, so contented.
Sadhguru sannidhi be here soon.

Neptune in Scorpio
Innate vision - spiritual responsibility for Earth's resources as a whole. U r aware of current human material values and the potential for transformation of those values that will lead humankind to a higher level of relating to the physical world.

Neptune in Scorpio dilemma
Dealing with establishing ur value with other people. It is the choice between idealistically expecting the automatic support of other people's resources or responsibly defining material values with them.
It also deals with the choice between expecting automatic emotional fulfilment through sex or committing urself to the self-purification that will actually bring about the realisation of those ideals.

Soul
True.
Used to think that only my partner can give me the emotional fulfilment. Now my shrine gave me the emotional fulfilment. Especially more so with Sadhguru sannidhi.
I told them the shrine like having a husband that gives u all the comfort and contentment but u need not give anything except doing sadhana.
I spend half an hour every night before sleep with the shrine, just imbibing in their energy.
They helps me to balance, prepare for my sleep and refreshing wake up.
With the Gudi, I can pour my heart out and cry my tears dry.
With Dhynalinga, it gaves me a meditative presence.

I still want a partner but I no longer believe that I must have a partner to be happy. What's meant to be will be.


Neptune in the 6th house
Unconscious
Ur tendency is to sacrifice on the altar of duty. If u seek to measure up to some perfected ideal in ur work, u will fail to be recognised as the willing servant that u aim to be.
Striving to be acknowledged as a self-sacrificing, spiritual person can lead to severe health conditions, tensions with co-workers and a tremendous sense of frustration and paranoia in the job.

Soul
Mmmm the issue of volunteering or even at work.
Explained my RA.
Now I m clear. I do like ISHA family and I like volunteering as part of Isha family. But I don't like rules, protocol and responsibility.
I m still vulnerable and tend to hold on to ideal image of what I m meant to be or what others are to be. I pushed myself hard, not able to lead others as their values are stronger than mine.
I judged myself short and others too.

Me too adaptable and open; giving in and taking too much roles and responsibilities even despite not wanting to do so.

Mmm Queen of Spades in Pluto for Ruling and Neptune for Destiny.

Conscious expression
The key is in letting go of ideals of how u should look as the worker. Then u focus on serving others rather than on ur image.
U are empowered to serve others in a positive way by releasing a need for reflected perfection.
In the process u freed urself to experience joy and union with coworkers in getting the job done together.
Happiness results when u trust that the universe is supporting u in ur work. This process leads to experiencing the ecstasy of consciously participating in being of service in ur work place.

Soul
Something here.

Neptune key to emotional ecstasy.
- Removes the illusion and reveals the truth, thereby showing how to actualise ur ideals in a way that works and produces rewards in the material world.
- depicts the self-defeating and confusing patterns where ur expectations are the highest and disappointments are the most intense.
- defines how ur preconceived notions of how the ideal would manifest must be sacrificed in order for the reality of the ideal to appear.
- indicate the arena in which u began the process of trusting the universe in order to fulfill an idealistic desire or where u allow the universe to manifest, according to its standards of perfection, by releasing ur preconceived notions, standards and ideals.
- signifies that area of life offering the strength, serenity and ecstasy of a divine contact, and a vision and trust in the workings of universe.

Soul
Let go of my own sets beliefs of how I can be happy.