Defensiveness starts war

Sept 12 eve 1


Byron Katie
Anytime I m defensive I have started a war.
Absolutely and a trap I still fall into. I can trace my defensiveness to unhealed hurt that drew false conclusions and a feeling of powerlessness early early on so that I became vigilant not to repeat the hurt. And that vigilance became a filter of perception.  Defensiveness is a war I start with myself to prove myself good enough. Other people are only the prop. No matter how it seems, they have nothing to do with what is going on inside me. It is hard to look at this but well worth it to let this heal. I really dislike seeing my defensiveness but I love truth more.

Soul
So true.
Cried loads after guru pooja. Later I knew Sadhguru be with me always.
Then later went into deep Shoonya.
Yes P was also one of my mama for Kailash. She helped me. She is and will be friend. Let her have her place just as I want mine.

Milarepa
I sought physical well-being through the key point of an erect, squatting posture, "binding of the six hearths".
I sought verbal control through the key point of controlling the life force winds, "binding of a plaited knots."
I sought mental relaxation through the key point of self-liberation," binding of a coiled snake.
Meditating in this way, a most wonderful warmth spread through me.