Moon in Taurus - I can give myself what I need to make me happy

Sept 22

Woke up without pain on my left shoulder. Can hardly remember if any pain on the knees. All good.

Did Bhuta Shuddi and followed by cat stretch. Angamardhana was good. A breakthrough in hero posture. For the first time there is no pain in my left knee. The folded mat is half way through. So comfortable sitting for five minutes, just contentment. Short Shavasana as now body used to Angamardhana, no longer tired and even sweat is much lesser.
Surya kriya was good despite a few days break. Able to touch both feet to ground for 3 mountain pose. These days no Shavasana after Surya Kriya, just proceed to breathing meditation.
Shakti was okay. Towards the third cycle of Kapala Bhakti, it has become painful on the knee so lose focus.
Shambavi was good. No singing just silent contentment. Wish I could sit longer. Just give myself 5 minutes to wake up.

Moon in Taurus
Unconscious
Seek others to provide attention, pampering and love by supplying  material and sensual comforts. When ur security depends on others, you cannot be capable or creative, for fear that these comforts may be taken away. So u feel helpless and unable to establish ur material sense of worth.

Conscious expression.
Notice that relying on others to create ur sense of self worth had not worked. Choosing to sacrifice the role of pampered child empowers u to create goals and objectives that motivate u to establish a set of values.
When u appreciate ur ideals enough to manifest them, u find the confirmation of self worth that u need.

Soul
Was keeping my money and hope to get a rich husband to provide me. Well that hope now diminishing. I can provide for myself. My big car and now the mercury sannidhi opens the way. My mantra now is that I have the means to make myself happy. I need not wait for others to provide for me.
I validate myself
This year Eight of Diamonds as challenge.


In past lives
Because u are accustomed to accumulation, u can have a difficult time letting go of anything, even things that are holding u back. This can impede flow of money coming into ur life.

Soul
Mmm. The cause of my RA, resistance on letting go. My Two of Diamonds first karma card.
With Z, the rship was meant to be Let go. It took me a long time.  Luckily he got married asap


In past lives
The first thing is to let go of is counterproductive ideas:
- the idea that u have a difficult time with money.
-  the idea that u have to earn every penny
- the idea that you have to do everything yourself, in exactly ur way, for ur needs to be met.

Soul
That's the control part.