Reluctance on volunteering

Sept 9
Before I slept saw a message to bring carpet. I can sense my reluctance and I ignored it. Preference is not to carry.

Replied this morning by giving impression that I m not keen. She got the msg. Father, key point is I will only do it if no one else. Again, not volunteering. Just being responsible. At least now I can say no. Previously I would say yes because to set a good example since I was a Sathsang guide. If I can't volunteer, how to get others to volunteer.

Woke up from a dream when alarm rang. Body was okay. Tot of yesterday Osho's the law of magic; creating the effects instead of creating the cause. He is right to say that cause are not within our control as it is dependent on many things. Effect is within our control as effect is generated in us.

Osho
The cause is beyond me. The effect is within me. The cause is in the surroundings, in the situations – the cause is without. The effect is me! If I can create the effect, the cause will follow.

Today Angamardhana  was good. Forward bend on the sitting posture quite effortless. Child posture still bit painful on the knees but still singing.

Of Mystics and mistakes
The whole purpose of yoga is to work towards a state of dreamlessness called "sushupti". Sushupti means u are dreamless. U are so aware that u are incapable of dreaming. When we say "dream", we are not just talking about dreaming during sleep or even what u called "daydreaming". Ur very tot process is called a dream. Existing without the necessary awareness is called dreaming. If u do not exist in reality, u are in a dream.


Soul
Yea, I was dreaming that I would go back to volunteering, would be part of the gang. The truth is I m not keen on volunteering.
The one thing I volunteer is my writing, my blog, my website.
It's okay, different people different delivery.
Truly can't go back. So having the sannidhi will take away the public Sathsang. No worries the friends I have is always there.


Of mystics and mistakes
Right now if you are looking at me, u do not see me the way I am; u see me as I am reflected in the firmament of ur mind. How u see me right now is largely a psychological process, so it is also a dream. I keep telling people, "just be with me, be with me," because if u simply see me, hear me, and believe that u understand what I m speaking, u are still in a dream state, u are still in a psychological process.
If it has to become an existential process, u must cut through the psychological. If u can simply be with me and cut through ur psychological process and touch another dimension of life, then u are not dreaming. Otherwise u are having a spiritual dream, which is not a good way to dream.

Soul
Sadhguru's "be with me" is being with him existentially. I m so grateful that since day one I m with him existentially. With him, my energy is activated and I m transported into another dimension.