To be in the present, instead of living in the past

Oct 8 aft

Today got an unexpected news from boss. Looks like her SOS message was more from her side. One of our management team wish to resign, most likely be gone in 4 to 6 months.
Boss is telling me her frustration, she lost the motivation to build up again the team. I can understand her frustrations. Even more so difficult to motivate others.
I told her that this job no longer motivates me but I valued it for its time freedom and give me the financial security to do what I want.

Today card is Three of Hearts in Mars.
Been having tots of Z and wife intermittently. Could be the mind trying to pull me back. I no longer wants to go there.
What I experienced this morning during sadhana is so precious.

The Issue
Change
Life repeats itself mindlessly - unless you become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel. That's why Buddhists call it the wheel of life and death, the wheel of time. It moves like a wheel: birth is followed by death, death is followed by birth; love is followed by hate, hate is followed by love; success is followed by failure, failure is followed by success.

Just see! If you can watch just for a few days, you will see a pattern emerging, a wheel pattern.
Life is continuously changing, evolving, dying and being reborn. All opposites play a part in this vast circular pattern. If you cling to the edge of the wheel you can get dizzy! Move toward the center of the cyclone and relax, knowing that this too will pass.


Soul
True..the minds keep on going thru old tapes.
I can't stop the tapes running but I can decide whether to listen or not.
Like Byron Katie said, we can have tots, but it is up to us decide whether to believe it or not.

2. Internal influence that you are unaware
Adventure

Zen says truth has nothing to do with authority, truth has nothing to do with tradition, truth has nothing to do with the past - truth is a radical, personal realization. You have to come to it. But one thing is certain: the very search will help you to grow. 

I can guarantee only growth. Danger will be there, sacrifice will be there; you will be moving every day into the unknown, into the uncharted, and there will be no map to follow, no guide to follow. Yes, there are millions of dangers and you can go astray and you can get lost, but that is the only way one grows. 

Insecurity is the only way to grow, to face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.

Soul
Father, now that Sannidhi is here with me; it is about maintenance.
The good thing is that I have been maintaining Devi's gudi and Dhynalinga yantra for a year now. So I can take care of them.
But didn't expect so much space to be taken up.
For now, we are both together.
Not sure where this will lead me..but I am Home.

Spoke to M, she said now I have become so spiritual. I said I am finally 'baptised', finally accepted Sadhguru as my path.

3. 3. External influences of which you are aware
Moment to Moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet: both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist. One used to exist, but no longer exists, and one has not even started to exist. T

This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now. Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgments, your preferences and the attachment to the details of your long-term plans. Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall; just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh, and carry on.

Soul
True.

4. 4. What is needed for resolution?
Flowering

The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. She is very sexual, very alive, and full of possibilities. She snaps her fingers to the music of love, and her zodiac necklace is placed in a way that Venus lies over her heart. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits. 

You might feel like a garden of flowers right now, showered with blessings from everywhere. Welcome the bees, invite the birds to drink your nectar. Spread your joy around for all to share.

5. Resolution
The Master

In the eyes of the Master, a disciple finds his own truth reflected. In the silence of the Master's presence, the disciple can fall more easily into the silence of his own being. The community of seekers that arises around a Master becomes an energy field that supports each unique individual in finding his or her own inner light. Once that light is found, the disciple comes to understand that the outer Master was just a catalyst, a device to provoke the awakening of the inner.

Soul
This is me sitting with my Sadhguru sannidhi.