Benefits of Sadhguru Sannidhi

Oct 9

Yesterday first poja went well.
As i light the candle suddenly i exploded into tears.  there was no prior emotion, it just exploded. a long cry followed by laughter and then calm, all happen within 5min. Start the pooja.
Seem like Sathsang
Energy not as great at the initiation.

At the end of the night, I sat down at my chair and looked at my shrine. There is a moment of regret, what have I got myself into. So much maintenance. Not sure how long I can keep up. Then moments later was a wave of silence enveloped me and I knew I couldn't get this energy space on my own. I just sat for half an hour absorbed in the silence.

G warned me that Sannidhi requires much maintenance and I ignored her. I told her that I am already keeping a shrine and whats important is how I feel about Sannidh, which is home to me. Alas, may be good i didn't know, otherwise may not have taken. amen

This morning woke up at alarm at 3.52 am and then slept back as I am on half day today. As I slept back, mind become active, I asked them to shut off so I can sleep, they did and I promptly went to sleep and woke up 7.00 am. My left leg is much better today. Both knees are still bit stretched. Looks like this is on-going for long term.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by singing guru pooja. When I was singing guru pooja, I do mock for doopam (incense), naiyediam (fruit) and Aaratrikam (camphor)
Cat stretch much flexible after guru pooja.
Angamardhana was good. During the hero posture, both feet now at the right angle. Stay for a long while as I was dancing and singing for quite some time.
During the Dhyna after Angamardhana, I went in deep, just didn't want to wake myself up for Surya Kriya. So I sat much longer. There is such a depth to my breathing meditation that has never happen before.
Did Surya Kriya, alignment not good since joints still in pain. Can only do 3 mountain pose with both feet on the ground. When I was stretching myself to lie down, suddenly tears exploded. It happens in both 3 and 5 breathe sessions.
Shakti was not as great as yesterday but I did go in deep with 150 Kapala Bhakti and sat throught the whole process, which is an amazing feat. In the end, singing and dancing, followed by silence.
Shambavi was awesome. Cry in the end. It has been a long time since I cry after Shambavi
In the end, singing and dancing followed by a deep silent contentment.

A tot came in that on my own I could have never reach this depth of silence without the sannidhi.
Since I am already doing nearly 4 hours a day of sadhana, the sannidhi truly helps in making my sadhana works. So no more momentary regret over the maintenance.
And next year renovation will help to take care of it.
Amen