Pluto in Virgo in home and family

Oct 1 eve
Can feel the contentment energy at downstairs living room. Must be due to Sannidhi. It is truly powerful even before initiation, energy is expressed, truly consecrated space.

Pluto in Virgo
Personal fear
Risking the criticism of others

Challenge
To serve others on practical levels even though u may not have attained the perceptions of self-perfection u seek.

Unconscious expression
Fear based withholding
Using ur sensitivities to people's feelings in ways that provoke them into confronting deeper awareness of themselves.

Results
This repression robs them of the opportunity to experience new feelings and also robs u. Giving in to fears of being rejected leads to withholding ur deepest responses to ur family.
This repression of openness leads to a resentment of others insensitivities. The result is overcontrol and emotional stagnation.

Soul
True.
This week a breakthrough. Me can share my knowledge with friends, providing them insights but never to my family. I m seen as the little sister, only can earn money but not as the wise one. But I m known as the courageous one that can stand up to my parents, so I m always called to confront my parents. On my sisters, my youngest sister always ask for my input. Big sister and I have always been close. Second sister always keep to herself and the few times I advised her, she told me off and so I avoid giving her input. The issue on her child has been going on for years and family all keep quiet as sister can be volatile.

Conscious expression
Fearlessness and charisma result when u go beyond ur greatest fears, surrendering to ur sensitivity. In revealing what u are feeling - in spite of fearing the consequences - u undergo a transformation of feelings. This allows for a truer alignment with ur deepest sensitivities.
In sharing ur responses and deep perceptions of others' feelings, u may experience a temporary invalidation from those who are closest. A purge of both ur insecurities and theirs can follow.

Soul
This week Finally open up to my sister, sharing with her my concern over her teenage child. Got her the therapist contact. The old me  would shy away thinking who am I to give advice as I don't have children, fear of being rejected and etc. The new me see that my priority on my nephew and sister instead on myself. At first she declines my input but this time I persevere. I ignored my fear and keep on. So she open up and got input from her friend and she said the advice is the same as what I She thanked me for being supportive.

Path to self mastery
Ceasing to control others' feelings to protect ur vulnerability  frees u to operate from a stable position. This vantage points empowers u to express and share from the integrity of ur deepest sensitivities.
Selfless commitment to recognising and exposing ur awareness of the realm of feelings leads u past ur greatest fears and into self mastery.
The environment in which u meet the challenge for personal transformation - ur home and family.

Soul
Suddenly a tot occur to me. My frequent use of vocabulary on "rejection". I used it quite often inwardly.
Others don't know how much fear I have