Thursday, January 20, 2011

I am transforming (5)

Dec 28 Aft

Father, feeling bit edgy with SB or is it with E. I guess its the control issue. I tot they r good planner as E seems to be in control but can be cowboy. When the lease issue was rejected, I know I cannot rely on them. So, have to take charge. Like E said, I was fired up. I was about to reply to him twice but I knew its not going to be good and I stop myself. Besides, need not justify to people why m fired up.
Also, fear extrapolated that they r disturbing my 'house'. It took me 3 years to get to where I am and I don't like any disruption that can trigger my plan for 3.5 days work.
I am more aware of myself and my tots.

Osho
Whenever u seek, u have missed that which is. Seeking always moves into the future, seeking cannot be here and now. How can u seek here and now? Here and now, u can only be. Seeking is desire - future enters, time comes in - and this moment, this here and now is missed. Truth is here, now.


Dec 28 Eve
Just watched d drama. This time I am not as engaged on the outcome. The outcome didn't turn out as I expected but I was not affected. I could even emphatise with the outcome. Something happening to me.

One thing it taught me, I now have a more definite attributes of partner that I want. Yeah.

This time IE pgrm have 23 confirmed participants. We, the volunteers did great. I even contributed 1 participants and 1 Intro.

Father, the more I understand and experiencing the Art of Willingness, the less I get Deliberate Intent. And I am more inclined on willingness, letting things be, why fight for more.

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