Overturning negative belief on 'rejection'

Dec 19
Father, I admire myself. Forgot completely about R. He didn't respond to my email on story. Never mind, I could have scared him away. But the story is meant for him as he is on deflation mode in his life. Perhaps that's the reason for the divorce. As for me, I no longer view as rejection, but more it his personal issue if he cannot accept my openness and depth. Amen.

Father, I felt such love for me. I have come a long way. My heart is overflowing with love for me. I m great. I was even able to view my perception of rejection from another angle. Don't come back, is great. Then God made the choice for me. Amen. I no longer that it personally.


Dec 19 Eve
Osho
In one sense, intelligence is very soft, like a rose flower, in another sense it has its own strength. But that strength is subtle, not gross. That is the strength of rebellion, of a non-compromising attitude. One is ready to die, to suffer, but one is not ready to sell one's soul.

Soul
Reminds me of the korean drama. Despite the risk of losing everything, the heroin doesn't want to use other people to be successful. She doesn't want her success to be hurting others.

Osho
An intelligent person cannot use another person as a means; he will respect the others. He will be able to see the equality of all. He cannot reduce them to things, he cannot make them stepping stone to the fulfillment of some absurd desire to be first.

Soul
Yea, me also. But not sure if m intelligent. I may be arrogant as I want to be successful at my own account, and not riding on others. Throughout my career, I pulled myself up, rather than pull others. I never took other people's credit.

Osho
Memory and intelligence come from different sources. Memory is part of the mind - Intelligence is part of no-mind. Intelligence is part of ur consciousness, and memory is part of ur brain. The brain can be trained - that's what the universities go on doing. All ur examinations are tests for ur memory, not for ur intelligence.

Soul
Amen. I used to think m slow minded, not good memory, not smart. A few years back, I tot of perhaps the mind has many layers. People with good memory goes thru the surface level and mine goes in deeper and hence takes longer to come out. And now I knew its different place.