Fear of frontal rejection (2)

Jan 5 Aft

What is needed for resolution
Guilt
This moment!...this herenow... Is forgotten when u start thinking in terms of achieving something. When the achieving mind arises, u lose contact with the paradise u r in.
When we punish ourselves for our failures by feeling guilty, we can get locked in a cycle of despair and hopelessness that robs us of all clarity about ourselves and the situations we encounter.

Resolution
Moment to moment
U can be present only if u r not ambitious - no accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money, prestige, even enlightenment, because all ambitions leads u into the future.
A man who wants to be present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premeditated
Be available to life.
Don't worry if u stumble or fall; just pick urself up, dust urself off, have a good laugh and carry on.

Soul
Amen.


Soul
Will no longer feel guilty about rejection. This is not about me.



Jan 5 Eve

Evening
Three person didn't show up but surprisingly am fine.

Last minute Sh agreed to come, after I given up on her. Also, St came and joined. The amazing thing is BH also agrees to join. So, we have 4 chinese in the class.

And I know I did a good sharing.
Father, taking rejection personally is an issue I will face. Tot of GM didn't want to join despite migraine, guess same as me didn't want to eat fruits despite RA pain, same as me didn't want to eat the lingzhi. It has nothing to do with the fruits or d gal. It is just me.

Today IE Sadhguru spoke of infinite desires. He spoke of the suffering due to failure of small desires is the same as failure of big desires. So, don't go choosing small desires, thinking there less risk of suffering.
He said that we r unhappy over any single unfulfilled desires, we forgot about the millions fulfilled ones.

He says if u aim high for the sky, perhaps u get the star. If u aim lower, ur own feet will get shot. So, our suffering is becos we aim small not because we aim big.

Soul
I would aim big. Go back to my original passion to be a Transformational leader. Coincidentally m reading Passion Test book.

Intention - state what u choose to create
Attention - pay attention to what u choose.
No tension - be open to moment by moment. Do not control. When u hold tightly to ur concepts of how things should, u shut off the flow life, which in turn prevents u from enjoying the fulfillment of living ur destiny.

E didn't reply my mail and sms, I took it personally for a few seconds and I move on. Somehow he got back to me....