I am transforming (3)

Dec 27 Eve

Eventhough the editor has no feedback on my writing, I was fine. Eventhough R has no feedback, I was fine too. Something is happening here. I used to lament when is transformation happening. I tot transformation relates to change of job or life styles or values or etc.

But now I know everything outer may not change, but inside has change. I have become willing and with that life become effortless.

For the first time, without realising, I am flowing with life, wherever it takes me. I just do my part and the unfoldment is not mine to dictate.

I used to tot mastery is controlling my destiny. I am encountering mastery is not having control of outer situation but yet is in control of inner situation. Not sure how. But somehow outer situations no longer is important.

My inner will deal with whatever outer there is. Is this what u called self-mastery? But I don't feel like a master, feeling of power. I just feel like a willing party. No exertion of power. No feeling of power. Just neutral, no effort at all.


Osho
Life is a mystery; that means it cannot be solved. And when all efforts to solve it prove futile, the mystery dawns upon u. Then the doors are open, then u r invited.


Soul
Father, you are great!
After all my efforts of trying, of uncovering my unconscious mind, of controlling myself and etc...and finally I know the key is to let go..be willing and everything become effortless!!!!

Now I finally understand what it meant TO EMBRACE LIFE; TO FLOW WITH LIFE.....