Facing my karma in relationship

Jan 1 2011

Father, yday rec new year greeting from Z; someone whom I tot wouldn't contact me and I forgot about it. Then this morning rec msg from E. I replied and there is no answer. Can see my ego on compulsive mode, but it didn't affect my emotion. Whenever compulsion came, I just say Love is effortless to me.

My next Saturn period from Feb is Seven of Heart - challenges in relationship. Being challenged now to practice non-attachment in ur closest relationships and to overcome ur fears of abandonment. Learning unconditional love and non-attachment in rships.
Father, surprisingly, I am not afraid. I now know my mental compulsion and it is not ME. Besides Love is effortless to me, so I will be able to learn.

Great thing is that results if Four of Hearts, so I know I be fine with my tools.

(Jan 24 - Now that time is coming near, and with the breakdown of my self-control wall, I am no longer that confident. I can now feel all the emotions within...bit scary. When its good, its great, when its not good..its bad...I justfeel such unease, miss him and don't want to feel it. But I recall that this is a defensive mode. So, if I miss him and want him, just let the feelings be. It will pass on.)

Yeap, Ruling's card is Four of Club - u have great power in positive thinking now, power of the mind can be used to heal urself or remove obstacles from ur path. Any skepticism u display now is not in harmony with ur inner beliefs.
Ace of Spade in Saturn - it is the card of transformation. There are parts of urself that are due for a change, this is probably the time when it will happen.

Father, thanks for the motivation. Coincidentally, just yday I told U that I am willing to go thru the learnings.

The Passion test - Janet Bray Attwood and Chris Attwood
Clarity is critical to success. Clarity leads to power - the power to act - which is the basis of achievement, fulfillment, and happiness in life. Without a clear direction, u r either paralysed or running around in circle. Worse, u can never reach ur full potential because u dare not fully commit.
To be truly happy, we must use our uniqueness to add values to the lives of others.

Intention - Love life is effortless
Attention - Removing negative beliefs; opening up.
No tension - effortless.