Samyama is a good tool (7)

Jan 10

Father, everything is flowing effortlessly. I am ready to be a Mother to all. Yday, I was surprised that I enjoyed myself. It was so energetic. Guess its due to Initiation. Let's see next round. We make it special by having a White Sathsang. (Jan 30 - AP teacher said no as we could be seem to be like a cult)

Samyama has led me to this. Refresher Samyama is great, thanks to T. Today I also give prayer of thanks to new teacher, D. Father, for her, can see the compassion but the joy is not expressed out, unlike T. But I thank her for helping me to see that I was a racist. Suddenly tot of natal chart that say if I am not accepting other people's culture, I would get Arthritis. When I read it, I denied it cos m not a racist. Now I admit I am, just like the rest. I guess, just becos I take some of them, as a price to pay, doesn't meant that I accepted them.

Just tot of Z, I realised he keep on emphasising on his age. Looks like age matters to him, or maybe it doesn't matter, like me. I tell everyone that I am 43. Anyway, the next day he flirt with me. I would tell him that he sounded like flirting and he must know my age before he continues.

Part of me knows that since he is so easy-going in out-office life and couldn't overcome his other barriers, it meant that he must be very good in some other area, most likely his business. A part of me says that if age is an issue to him, then he may not be able to overcome it as 'face" seems important. That's not true, I know he doesn't mind be treated as joker.
Mmm, so much drama in my mind. Stall it. Mind really cunning. Give them an inch and it rode a mile.
But these days, I am able to separate from them. That's why the suria and meditation is great this morning. Suria so effortless.

(Jan 30 - I was right. He is very good in his drive for achievement. A real intense self-made man. So, once spent, less energy on outside office.)


Osho
There is a switch in the mind. The name of the switch is watchful awareness, witnessing. If u start witnessing the mind, it begins to stop. The more that witnessing grows, the more and more do u become aware of a secret key, that the mind can be stopped easily. And that moment is of great liberation, when u can turn the mind off for hours. And when it come back, when u recall it, it comes back rejunevated, fresh.
Hence, meditators are bound to be more intelligent than other people.

Soul
Suddenly tot last weekend, no tots of office at all, despite so much drama happening this week.

Osho
A meditative person is bound to be more sensitive, more intelligent, more creative, more loving, more compassionate. These qualities grows of their own accord. The secret is learn to stop the mind. And that's when u become its master. U use the mind when it is needed, and u put it off when it is not needed.

Meditation is a state of clarity, not a state of mind. Mind is confusion. Mind is never clear. It cannot be. Thoughts create clouds around you - they are subtle cloud, and a mist is created by them and the clarity is lost.

When tots disappear, when there are no more clouds around u, when u r in simple beingness, clarity happens. Then u can see, ur gaze is penetrating, the very core of being.

When ur meditating, tots settle on their accord, u need not jump among them, u need not put them right. It is as if a stream has become muddy ..what u don? If u jump in it, u make it more muddy. U simply sit at the river bank and wait. Nothing can be done.

Remember, meditation will bring u more and more intelligence, an infinite intelligence, a radiant intelligence. Meditation will make u more alive and sensitive; ur life will become richer.