Deflation mode prevents me from transforming (2)

Nov 29
Father, saw Isha note. Frankly not keen. Yea, no plan to go in deeper. For now just want to focus on getting my site ready and besides I have already informed the Teacher. Anyway, will do the note cos its for Sadhguru and besides writing is my forte.

(Dec 20 - I am now actively participating in Isha. Firstly, was called to guide sathsang, secondly called to be presenter, thirdly active distribution of brochures to strangers. I open up cos I think this could be the training I need before I become a public speaker. I also now think that my RA activation is caused by me unwilling to remove my deflation mode. Thanks to R, I now can see and will expand.)

Osho
Freedom and responsibility goes together.
If u give up responsibility, u have to accept slavery in some way or another. Freedom means u will have to be responsible for every act and every breath, whatever u do or don't do, u will be responsible.
My own experience is that very few people would want freedom because they are subconsciously aware that freedom will bring more problems they are not ready to deal with. They would rather remain in cosy imprisonment.
The alternative means u have to do something with ur freedom. You have to be ready to be a seeker, a searcher, a creator, but very few people want to go on a pilgrimage, or do deeper into deeper silences of the heart, or take responsibility of love. The implications are great.
You will have to dispel the darkness of sadness, otherwise sooner or later u will enter some prison. You cannot go on burdening urself with sadness. Before the burden becomes too much and forces u back into some slavery or imprisonment, change the whole situation by being a creative person.

Just find out what brings u joy in life, what u would like to create, what u would like to be and what u want ur definition of life to be.

Freedom is simply an opportunity to find a definition for yourself; a true, authentic individuality, and the joy in making the world around u a little better and more beautiful and to become more conscious.

A negative freedom is not very susbtantial, it can disappear. Freedom has to become positive.

Soul
Father, U truly guide me every step of the way. I have been sad for awhile, but couldn't figure out why cos I have nothing to complain about. Everything is flowing the way I want. And now I know its because I was in a negative freedom mode.

(Dec 20 - Also uncovered my Deflation mode and now opening. Alas, my RA is due to another prison as somehow I resisted the movement into Universe mind.)

(Jan 7 - now that I have started to remove the deflation mode and get involved irrespective of my judgement, RA pain is reducing)