Insecurity creates defense mechanism and resulting in self-sabotage

Jan 17

Father, this morning finished practices very early partly due to little surka kriya as right elbow is stiff. But the good thing is I can do suria. My worst time of RA is over. This is my spring time.
Father, I think this new hair do brought out the woman in me. For the first time, guy looked at me like a sexy woman instead of a sweet cute gal.
Father, U said RA is about me setting back myself. Please guide me.

The Passion Test - Jane Bray Attwood
Intention - consciously stating what u choose to create in ur life is the first step to manifesting
Attention - give attention to what u choose to create in ur life and it will begin to show up.
No tension - when u r open to what is appearing in this moment, u allow God's will to move through u.

(Feb 1 - this will be what I do for my passion to find my partner. For me, now I just want to be happy even in uncertainty.)

Soul
Suddenly tot of my set back, being a Transformational Leader. Now no longer as gung ho as before, partly because of the delay in website and also didn't receive any accolades, not sure of twitter, not sure of success, and etc.
And as per norm, I shift it elsewhere.
Anyway, will focus back on being a Transformational leader. Being a famous published author is effortless. Let's get this on track first.

On love life, it is effortless, I need to do window shopping. Don't have to focus on any particular person. And Z is still raw and need time to heal. Besides, once I am a famous published author, my criteria may changed again.

(Feb 1 - you see, Z is not ready. And I need not dictate it to be him.)

The Passion Test
Your results are not created on the gross surface "thinking" or "doing" level of life but from going deep within and tapping into the unbounded reservoir of creativity and intelligence within each of us.
You have a unique gifts because u have a special role to play in the world that requires giving those gifts. When u r playing that role, u r living ur personal destiny. When u r aligned with ur destiny, ur life is joyful, delightful, exciting and fulfilling.

Soul
Get back on track. Before public speaking. Has to do the internet biz first.

The Passion Test
When u follow ur passions, u will love ur life.
Your passion are not ur destiny; they are the clues or keys to ur purpose in life. The more passionate ur life, the more closely ur life is aligned with ur destiny.
Destiny is a life's journey. Passions change and morph over time as one comes to know and understand oneself more deeply.

Soul
My fear is rejection. That's why I have got side tracked.